Wednesday, June 28, 2006




I dont do this very often. I dont share my tots with the others even though i have a blog aka online diary. Since i got back to pen and paper, i don't share my views or talk about my personal life. Not anymore. Everyting is just between me & my cool diary that i bought weeks ago. And everyday without fail, i jot something down. Just like the events that happened yesterday. I just find that it is worth blogging.

I woke up yesterday morning with Hidah's call that sent me reeling in shock. Naat's sms came soon after and i just broke down. Yes. I broke down. A dearest fren's mum passed away yesterday morning. A very unexpected death. And for the record, im shaking, right now. My fingers are trembling. Me & a group of frens decided that it is only right to pay our last respects by visiting her. We did.

I gave her a hug when i saw her. Her eyes were puffy from all the crying. It saddens me to see her like dat. And you guys shld noe the peribahasa- Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. Yes, i dont quite understand how she really feels to lose someone she loved ever so dearly, the person who gave birth to her, the person who brought her up and showered her with loves. No, i dont understand. I havnt lost anyone close to me. She has. But all i can do right now is pray for her well being. Pray that she will move on and be a much more stronger person. I hope that she knows that everything happens for a reason and that it is all fated.

Im not good with words. I never was. I dont quite know what to say to her when she is infront of me. Thus, i was silent. Most of the time. When, i reached home, close to 1 am last night, as i laid on my bed, i couldnt sleep, therefore, i smsed her and told her to be strong and that i will always be there for her when she nids me.

Her reply.. 'Thx button'.

Followed by another text, 'Treasure your mom.'

Yes. Treasure your mom. Treasure your dad. Treasure your grandparents, your siblings, your friends, your bf, your gf, your fiance, your fiancee, your husband, your wife. Treasure all those people around you. Treasure them. Let them know that you love them. Life is way too short. Too short infact. You wouldnt know when Allah will just take lives away. Thus, dont ever take things for granted. You will only know how how much thay mean to you when you lost them. So, dont ever take things for granted. That's one thing i learnt yesterday.

May Allah bless her mom's soul and may she rest in peace. Amin.

Yes, this is worth blogging.


@ 4:15 AM