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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
.rose among the thorns.
p/s- pixs are already uploaded at my fotopages. feel free to view.
If anyone happens to find Danny, pls call me..!! Pretty pls. Danny was last seen last nyte at around 11.36 pm. Now he is missing and im miserable. He havent eaten yet. *sobs*
Roses among the thorns. That's exactly how i gonna start my entry. Was supposed to mit my sec sch peeps, guys & girls alike. But all the girls 'bubbled' me at the very last minute. So i ended up with the guys. Hang out with anip & og first b4 being joined by usop & mac.
There's a perk being the only girl in the group. U get pampered. A lot. Hee. Most of the time, the guys were saying 'ok' to whatever i say. Not bad huh. Initially, i wondered how on earth m i gona survive wif 4 guys. But it was all ryte. End of the day, Anip & Og gf came. So i wasnt the only girl afterall. Psssst, wanna noe a secret? Its not gona be a secret anymore if i list it down here. Of all the 4 guys yesterday, 3 was my ex bf. Never tot that i would still get along well with all of dem. Esp usop. Considering the incident that happened 2 years ago. But it was all ages ago. I think all forgive and forget. Besides, all are happily attached. Very happy for dem. It was a lot of fun being pampered by dos guys. Hehe. Especially the wearing of helmet part. Till now, i still havent pass wearing the helmet. Sape yg pakai kan? One of dem jugak. Layan~. The day started with me meeting anip & og at tangs. Had my ipoh hor fun wif dem b4 heading to topshop. Anip wanna do sum shopping. And boy did he pamper himself! And he shop like a girl! He took so long to find sumtin dat he finally like. Gosh. We waited for usop b4 heading for coffee at starbucks. Took some time b4 all finally decided to watch a movie at Plaza Singapure. Met up wif Mac.
Mac looks a bit like my idol- Taufik. No wonder im frens wif him! Haha. He's gona kill me if he reads dis. No Mac, im not ur fren just coz u look a bit like Taufik k. d=p
We watched Zathura. U should watch that show. Was a bit skeptical at first. But i enjoyed every minute of it! Especially with the company of my guy frens. The story line was great. The characters were humorous. Potrays what real siblings are about. Go watch it! Oh, did i mention dat sumone ask me out yesterday while i was out wif dos guys. Gosh. I got the feeling that he argued wif his gf. What's new? and i received a call from sumone dat i havnt heard from in 6 days. Suddenly called me at 6.44am. I wasnt sleeping at that time. Was awaken by dida telling me that Danny is missing. *sobs* Sumone pls help me find him!!!
Sunday, November 27, 2005
.summary.
Lovers spat. Im suddenly surrounded by them from morning till nyte. Consider myself lucky that i dun haf a bf to argue with. But at the end of the day, they settled their differences. Hopefully. Had a pretty eventful day with ija & family & bf. Here's a summary.
Im too tired to type out what happened. So as usual click on to my fotopages to view pictures.
dee's fotopages: http://deewicked.fotopages.com
Im watching Muzika Extravaganza now. Disapointed at the crowd. Their applause was pathetic, i must say. Come on, i expect betta. Syed Azmir, was, as usual, so good looking. Though i felt that he didnt bring his voice out. N why the hell did Khairul Anwar sing 'Sejati'. That song didnt fit his voice. The key was so low. Its so not him. And sumone pls tell Hazrul not to dance like dat. he look like a big giant, shaking. No offense to Hazrul. I love his voice, esp when he sings ballad but the dance..? Cannot make it. My words sting but im stating facts. Mawi's on now. He's my bro's fav. I wonder how good he is. Everyone seems to be going gaga over him. But not me! He is singing 'Aduh Saliha'. My bro fav song as well. Im so sick of listening to my bro singing this song everyday, but i find myself singing to it as well. Hee. Hazrul just sang 'Kau lah segalanya'.. Oh mmy gosh.. His voice. Wowie. The guys, Azmir, Hazrul & Khairul finished singing the song, 'Blah blah blah'. They were frozen for at least 2 seconds but there were no applause. How rude! See, im mad. Ugh. If it sit infront of the computer commenting of how boring *yawn* and pathetic M.E is, i'd be agitated. Besides im sorry for artistes who sang their hearts out but wif no applause. Its like dey nva appreciate and dun even bother dat dey are der. Hmmmph.
Im out.
.18 more days till my bdae.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
.bdae.
It's khadijah's bdae today! Happy bdae darling! I dun want to type out ur age coz i noe you wun like it. Make a guess wats her age? One hint. Looks can be deceiving. Haha. I ws browsing thru my computer to look for her picture and mine but guess wat? All are so old. We hvnt been taking pictures. Sheesh. Nvamind2, tomorow when i go over to her place, we'll definitely take more pictures. Yea! Im going to ija's plc tomorow. Hear dat Feiroz? Wanna join me? Hehe.Was msging ija just now. She told me that her dad was nagging at her to get married. Uh-oh. serves you ryte. I ask you to marry earlier dun want! She got tired of msging i guess coz i receive her call. She asked me if dat perv still harrass me. She said that she dreamt that he still harrass me. Isnt that sweet? The bond we share now even makes her dream of me. Speaking of that perv ( i get so disgusted talking bout him), he called me again last night. ARRRGHHHH! Why didnt he get the hint? How stooopid can u get perv?!
You see, he called me last nite. Private no. I answered. I got the feeling that it was him. Was irritated but i reluctantly said, 'hello'. With his perv acting cute voice replying 'hello', i felt so eeeeeewwwwwww so i hung up. With all his stupidity & ignorance, he called me back. But i didnt answer. That perv creeps me out. Seriously. I really duno wat to do. M so at my wits end. Wanna avoid that sickening perv but he still keeps calling and sms-ing. Is he dumb or wat? Cant he get the hint? Maybe he is just doing this to make me feel even terrified of him. Wat kind of sick mind does he have? Stoopid idiotic moron! Fucking sickening perv! Pardon the language but i so hate him. Azly(Ija's bf) said i could still make a police report. Coz that guy is harrassing me. I could even get a sub court letter. Wow! It seems just like in the drama serial. I havent decide wat to do yet. Maybe i'll have a chat wif Azly tomoro when i go to ija's plc.
Im eating my lunch ryte now. My bro bought for me the filet meal. I finished the fries but i have yet to touch the burger. Im full from eating the fries. Maybe i'll have the burger for my dinner.
Hmmmm..
19 more days till my bdae. 
Friday, November 25, 2005
.23.11.05.
Would u believe me if i tell all of u guys out der, dat i'm in love?
I slept late yesterday nyte, talked to sri on the fon. And yesterday, my bestie asked me whether i already wished for my bdae. For da record, my bdae is in 20 days time. *hint hint*.
So i replied to ianna that i just want my family to be happy and ehem, have a bf. Ianna said that the latter, would be coming soon and asked whether ders 'calon'. I told her that ryte now, either i like dos guys but dey dun like me or i dun like dos guys but dey like me. As usual, ianna would say dat its better to find sumone who loves u more den u love dat person so u wun get hurt more. Ders sense in that statement but.. u noe me.. Im too fickle to noe what, i mean who i really want.
So you guys think im in love, think again!
Everyday and nite i wonder why i must be in love?
Why i must believe in love?
Why must i be the one to handle all dis?
Why must i be the stoopid one?
Why must i be disappointed bcoz of love?
Why? why? why?
The pain and ache has healed. But the longing is stil der. God, i miss him!
p/s-ive exceeded my 500 free sms quota. So if i dun reply to any smses, i apologise.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
.22.11.05.
So i received lotsa calls and sms-es bout my entry yesterday. Thanks for caring and the sarcastic remarks. Yana- da latter was for you! Hehe. Ok2, ive learnt my lesson aite.
Despite me being so lazy to go out yesterday, i was sort of 'forced'. I just wanted to saty in yesterday. Weather was cooling and its sucha nice time to.. sleep. But, Nadya was sort of like pedih2. She said, "yelah rumah i malas pe nak pegi." So, i agreed.
The two couples, Jaymelia and dida/adek fetched me from home to sengkang where we had a nice and sumptous home cooked meal.
us eating...
the fried chicken wings..
the vege, egg & asam pedas..
Auntie cooked all dos. Nva sleep just to cook for us. How nice! Thanks Auntie. Did i mention that the food was great! It was yummy-licious. Nadia was shocked coz i ate a lot. She knew that im not the type of person who 'tambah'. Oh well, what can i say? The food was to delicious to resist.
*winks* Especially the asam pedas. Wow!
Us after eating.....
and again...
Our dessert.. Thx to adek & jay who went to the shop to buy...
But the funny thing is dat, only me, adek & jay ate the ice cream. dida & Nadya were too full. Hmmm.. I must watch what i eat. Been eating a lot lately. Damn. We watched telly for an hour or two afterwhich we call it a nite as dida had to work the next day.
That is me in the bus, thinking of how much calories i took in after that meal. Hee.
So that's what happened yesterday...
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
.pervert.
I wanna share this experience wif all since i got the time ryte now. I received a disturbing mms form someone i barely even knew. That pervert sent me an mms of his genitals. Faham2 lah k. Like i mentioned earlier, i barely even know him. The story goes like dis, that fateful day, i was having a really bad day. Crying non stop coz of sumtin. I received a private call whom i tot was my pillar of strength. But it was not. But unfortunately for me, i have already spilled my guts to him. The next few weeks, he has been contacting me, calling me syg etc. But there was once i asked him, 'Y must u call me syg?' coz he dun even noe me. N we both have no idea what we both look like. Oh ya, he also mentioned that he liked me even though he nva see me b4. What crap! That fateful saturday, he asked for my picture. I told him that he shld sent me his pix first b4 i sent mine. He sent me 3 mms. 2 of which is his picture and the other one is that picture. Ugh. I felt so disgusted. My only stupidity is that i deleted all 3 pictures. My only tot after i received that mms was that im gona ignore him. Not replying his msg or calls. But monday afternoon, he sms me, 'hi syg, dah mkn lum?'. Felt so dread receiving his msg. As usual i didnt reply. That nite, i told ija what hpn. She was furious. Called her bf who is a policeman who was also furious upon hearing what had happened. He told me to report to the police. But the only problem is that ive deleted the picture. Dont be fool by ija's sweet face. She's actually so scheming. She is able to manipulate questions and i sent a msg to that pervert. Hopefully he will sent that picture again or so. Ija bf said that these type of pple should be reprimanded. Besides under the law, this is called an outrage of modesty. That nite i asked Ahmad for the real deal. He explained the procedures and all. He's also a policeman. He told me to be prepared as my hp and sim card will be seized as evidence. And police will definitely investigate the matter. Jabir also told me to report it to the authorities if i feel disturbed. Hmmm. Maybe i will. Maybe i just warn that pervert or sumtin. Overall everybody that i talked to about this matter asked me to take care of myself. One even mentioned that ive been meeting weird guys and that i should be extra careful. aha. Just put down the fon wif him. Thx for caring though.
Guys are such a disaster. Either u hate them or u love them. I hate dat pervert! I love all those who cared bout me.
Moral of the story is: Dun even try to be funny with me as i have a lot of policeman friends!
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
.hirok pikok.
Ive decided that i wun wait for the rest to upload the pictures.
Im just gonna upload mine.
Just click on the links below to view the pixs. Thank you. Very nice.
my fotopages: http://deewicked.fotopages.com
anajunkies fotopages: http://anajunkies.fotopages.com
miss icez fotopages: http://miss-icez.fotopages.com
efni fotopages: http://cipbugga.fotopages.com
.tired.
I have been sitting infront of the computer for the last 2 hours or so. But i havent start blogging at all. Im so worn out ryte now. Physically and emotionally.
Physically coz yesterday's raya wif HPC was a sucess! My best raya outing for dis syawal.
Emotionally coz 'if loving him wif all my heart is a crime, im guilty'.
Lets not tok bout dat ryte now. My day started out wif me & dida heading to my grandmother's plc from my dad's side at toa payoh. Due to some complications which had our moods ruin coz of not one but 2 stoopid phonecalls, we had to head over to toa payoh first. But all turns out well afterall. Afterwhich, Jay picked me & Dida up and off we went to West Coast to Eila's place. The whole crew wasnt der though. Trisya was away holidaying in Paris. Jabir couldnt make it either as he finised work late. We still had fun though. We had so many good times yesterday. After eila's plc, we went to ana, sri, feiroz, efni, naja, adek and jay place. Sat under the void deck for all while the CEO of HPC gave her speech. There was even awards to be given out. I won 4. Hee. Nanny of the year, Colour of the year(green), Watch of the year( Tie wif dida) and accesory of the year! Not bad huh. I wouldnt list all down here coz it wouldnt be a surprise. The CEO will have it all done tonite. She will be so busy at work uploading the pictures and updating the HPC website. Speaking of uploading, i have already uploaded the pictures to my computer but i havent uploaded it to my fotopages yet. I'd wanna wait for all pictures to be uploaded first, den i collect everything and upload it to my fotopages. We brought a total of 4 cameras yesterday, so lots of pictures were taken. Unfortunately my camera zonked out on me. The battery died only at the 4th house. Why not? It was in the hands of Dida. And dida, being known for her menjengness, took lotsa pictures in it. I didnt take that much coz i was busy baby sitting. That's why i won the nany of the year. Hah.
I'll upload the pictures by tomorow hopefully. Till then, here's some appetizers..
The HPC crew.. Minus Trisya..
The HPC hunks
The HPC babes..
Till i upload the many pictures to my fotopages..
Sunday, November 20, 2005
.tired.
Im am so shagged! I mean really really shagged. Can't stop yawning. I had a busy day today.
Today, the whole family except Dida went to help out to organize an event with the disabled. Btw, this is like my mom's company's event with the disabled. Initially, i didnt wanna go but i tot, wat the hey, it shldnt be dat bad ryte. I mean, im doing a good deed here. And i tot the event would be held at the disabled home but i was soo wrong. It was held at Tampines. Under the void deck. It looks sum sort like a wedding. Except smaller. And i m one of the most busiest girl around. I did almost everything to help out. Like i said, its for a good deed.
Volunteers from Sp was der as well. A certain guy caught my eye. Not only does he have a good heart, volunteering and helping out at disabled homes and stuff, he has good looks as well. His dimple caught my eye. Like the way he smile. Oooo, Dee got a crush. *ahaks*
Yea ryte. I wouldnt think i 'd see him again after dis.
Remember Shamsuri Salleh. The guy from Anugerah that was kicked out form the competition as he came in 2nd in past years comp, well, he was der. And i, took pix with him. Haha. Nothing to do. One of the songs he sang was, 'Relaku pujuk'. And i was like wow.. his voice is soo nice. If he qualifies to the final of Anugerah, he'd definitely win! Yes people, no matter how much i like Syed Azmir, i'd tink that Shamsuri has better vocals.
*yawn*
Im so sleepy. Ders raya outing wif Hirok pikok clan tomoro. Cant wait!
Think i beta go to slp. Too slpy.
Btw, pixs are uploaded. Feel free to view : http://deewicked.fotopages.com
Saturday, November 19, 2005
.dsturbed.
Finally a brand new skin! I noe pple must be asking why dis girl keeps changing skin all the time? Hee. I myself have no idea. But im finally contented when i see my current skin. Its so simple yet pretty. Im a lil pissed ryte now. Having waited for days and now i found out that the car is not available. Ugh. Now have to find an alternative for sunday's raya outing. I invited jabir as well. He might be coming. MIGHT be. Not confirm yet. Just trying to make myself clear.
Aniwaez, i promised to blog how dinner went yesterday when my gfs came over. It was mediocre. The food that is. The company was most enjoyable. The food wasnt that good. The rice were a lil too dry and the anchovies was overcooked. Hey, i even critic my own cooking ok. Im not some self centered bitch who would say suger spice and everything nice bout myself. Coz i noe, i aint perfect. No one is. Had fun with the girls chatting, watching movie & tv serial, 'Lifeline'. Commenting how stoopid policemen are. Not critizing anyone but the actor who potray the character of the 'policeman' in the tv serial, 'Lifeline' was really silly. Silly in the sense of shouting that the weapon was nearby when the suspect is not handcuffed. Stoopid lah ok.
Marhaini keeps commenting bout my figure. She said that i was getting, uhm, 'mampat'. Here's our conversation.
M: Dee, kau makin mampat eh.
D: Kira aku gemuk lah ni..
M: Tak ar. Just nice. Dari kau kurus cam lidi.
Which the whole crew agreeing and i was like yea2. We ended the day after the 'Lifeline' show. Definitely meeting again soon. My bdae coming up. Yippie.
Btw, pixs are uploaded.Pls proceed to http://www.deewicked.fotopages.com.
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Friday, November 18, 2005
.busy.
Black pepper prawns, nasi lemak. That's on top of my list to cook today. My gfs for over a decade is coming over so i nid to whip sumting special for them. Not only that, we're celebrating ain's 20th bdae so, of coz it has to be special!
I'll keep u update on things.. So till then, im off to cook.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
.teary.
Im all teary ryte now. I tot i could handle it my way. But unfotunately, i cant. The truth is, i cant handle anything ryte now. I cant handle ur calls, ur msges. Only one reason why. Coz i still love you. That is why im not answering your calls and replying ur sms-es.
As i sat infront of the computer, reading my mails, my hp which was placed next to me rang. I tot it was ija or maybe even sri perhaps. One look at it and i got teary eyed. And the fact that im listening to sad sappy song from Jay Chou doesnt help either. With all the courage that i plucked, i managed to not pick up the call.
April 29 was a day of torture. Who would have thought my world would crumble into pieces. And who would have tot that nearly 7 months later, im stil living in a delusional world. God help me pls.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
.bitter.
Yesterday nyte, i found myself too troubled to sleep. And for once, i have no idea why. My pillar of strength listed it out for me and as a lost and confused girl dat i am, answered, "Emmm, maybe all." The few things that he listed was, 'Finance, Family, Career & Love'. Well, to be honest, under the finance & career category, i dun have much of a problem there. Family & Love is giving me lotsa problems.
Lets see, in five years time, my family will be like... (fill in the blank). Don't know. DOn't care. Scratch that. I care, but i still don't know the answer. What do i know? Well, everyday is a cold war btwn them. The rest of us are pretending to be alright. But to be honest, im not alright. I hate it when shitty things happen. Negative thoughts eludes me. What is going to happen next?
Marhaini made me think dat day. We talked about my love life. She sent me this msg.
'Y botha bout wat pple say bout ur relationship. They r nt u. They dun share da love u n him had. Tink abt it gal.'
It was pretty intense coming from her. On the outside, she's the crazy, happy go lucky girl and now she sent me that msg. I tink its the same as me. On the outside, i pretend to be ok, i am the same Dee but deep down inside, truthfully, im not alright. I was sad, depressed and angry. I feel out of place and out of time and I think Im gonna lose my mind. Ive always been known as a melodrama queen, oops, i mean, princess. So pardon how expressive i get.
I read somewhere that when u get older, you're on the brink of something new. Big changes are coming.. You're about to grow up. But for me, i still got one foot in childhood and one foot out of the door. Im mixed up and torn in half. I used to have a plan of what my life is going to be like- and of course it was going to be perfect. Why wouldnt it? I had great parents, cool friends, lovable bf. I had no reason to suspect that my world was about to shatter into a million pieces. My feelings are bottled up inside now, literally. If u know me by now, u would noe that one thing i hate most in this life is being lonely. Does that sound pathetic to you? It sure does to me. Sometimes i tell myself, it's ok to be single. It's ok not to have a bf. But at the end of the day, i would chide myself and say, 'who m i kidding?' Having a bf to be der for you, somebody you can talk to would help. Someone to share things with. Someone who could make me laugh. Someone i could trust. And the most important thing- someone who could love me, like i would love him. My feelings get even more torn up everytime i see couples pairing up infront of me. It made me feel how useless i am in this department. Like when i get back from an outing or some sort, i'd wanna talk to my sisters but when i walked into the room, bof my sisters are talking to their bfs. See what i mean? It got me to a stage where i feel like this is my worst nightmare. My life seems to be spiraling out of control. I wanted to crawl into bed and never come out. But deep inside me i had to reserve a strength. I have to find the courage to face what happened to me. I wouldnt want to let my problems crush me, and once i moved beyond that, a whole new world would open up.
The more i think about it, the more i think i've got to be the one who make things change- i can't just keep reacting to everything around me.
Okay, enough. I've got a ton of things to do.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
.madness.
It was pure madness for me yesterday. I travelled from one end of Singapore to another. From Bishan to Jurong east to West Coast to Kembangan to Bedok. Hirok pikok! Spending time with my loveliest & closest peeps always makes my day. I mean, what better way to enjoy, chill & have fun with other than them, ryte?
Started out with me waking up late & msging all the many people that im meeting that day. Ramai lah ok. Its so difficult being the planner and there's no reason why my hp bill won't go KABOOM!! I mean this is the reason. When u have many pple to msg, to plan, to meet etc. Too many things to do. You crack your brain and all. But at the end of the day, ur efforts paid off. You get to enjoy urself with all your friends.
The first house dat i visited was Salinah. Went there with Suliana, Nadia and her daughter Mariam. Salinah cooked lah ok. Food was yummy. Was supposed to meet my sec sch fren Reen at kembangan at 4, but i lost track of time. I was still at West coast at 4. Rushed quickly to Clementi Mrt to Hidah's plc. It was her bdae yesterday and her mum decided to whip something up. I didnt get a chance to spend time with Zul & Anip. Considering that by the time i reached, they were about to leave. Dgr2 korang gi main game kan. Issh. Once again, i lost track of time when im with Reen, Hidah & Mac. Yes, Mac was kind enough to wait for me. We even planned an outing together on the 27. Cant wait to meet up with u guys again. Left with Reen & Mac. Took train to Bedok and then a bus to Liyana's place. Liyana is my primary school fren. I meet up with my gfs of over a decade. We went visiting at each other's plc. Unfortunately, this year was a bit different. Dida was sick. Again. So the mighty 6 was left with 5. This year was also different as we started our visiting at night as some of the girls have already started working. We planned to meet again this Thursday to celebrate Ain's bdae. Im gonna whip sumting up fir them, considering that they are coming over to my place. What shall i cook? Hmmmm...
Speaking of cooking, im starving. Havnt had anything to eat today. Was thinking of going on a diet as yesterday all the houses that i went to, i ate something. Marhaini commented that im getting chubbier. Thx ar gerl. She even wana compete with me bout having the most chubbier cheeks. But i cannot win lah ok. That award already goes to her. Im like the runner up. Aha.
I am getting so so intrigued with all these people calling me up. Im like 'woah'. When did i suddenly came across their mind? Im so confused ryte now. I dun even noe what to do. Crazy as Marhaini is, she gave me a very good comment yesterday that i consider doing. But i have to think about the others. I don't know what to do. Im so at my wits end..
*sigh*
p/s- pixs from yesterday..as usual, go to http://deewicked.fotopages.com
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
.bleugh.
I had an amazing time with my girlfrens juz now. Went over to Jee's open house. The girls of 4e2 brought the house down. It was supposed to be a hari raya open house but the four of us came clad in everyday clothes. Issh. But we're welcome with open arms though. Im doin so many things ryte now. Uploading the many pictures that i took just now, blogging, chatting wif darlg ana & sms-ing sumone. *winks*
Btw, my bill came. I shld cut down on my smses and calls. Total bill is $75+. Its going up. I feel like a businesswoman like dat. So many calls to make and smses to sent. Argh.
Tomorow, ders so many places to go. Sorry Mukhtar. I hafta turn u down to go raya outing with u & ur frens. I have many hses to go tomorow. Btw, Hidah, Happy bdae switz.
I feel so bad having to turn down my bestie's offer to go holidaying with her and her family to KL. It would be fun to go with dem! They are basically my family! I feel so welcome with them.
My bestie have done so much for me. Being with me in my downest moments. Now, because of her, i got the 'Kenapa' song. Hee. Have you heard of dat song? Its sung by Shazzy featuring Lah of VE. The song so feeling la ok. So sad.
HAd enuf of blogging.
Click here to view pixs..
http://deewicked.fotopages.com/
Saturday, November 12, 2005
.happy.
This morning, i woke up as early as 6 as i need to go for relief teaching. I was actually looking forward to it as i havent seen the kids in a while. Imagine my surprise when the afternoon kids came up to me & hug me. The morning kids were like unimaginable. Oh no. There's only one word to describe the morning kids. Monsters. They are really monsters! They are so boisterous and loud! My pillar of strength can even call me the chief of monster. Gosh.
Had so much fun with those 2 colleagues of mine. Ija & shirley. We clicked so well considering that all 3 are saggitaurus baby. We had so much crap talk during our break. And now, i cant wait to go for shirley's bdae bash this december.
Yesterday was a blast! Was supposed to go out with bestie & lil princess, but there was a change of plans. So i headed over to their place. Feeling2 nak ber-hari raya but i didnt wear any traditional costumes. Had a forced-lunch from Mak & ianna. Cober eh! Gossipping with my bestie & teasing boy-boy was exhilarating. Seeing the lil princess gives me so much joy. The lil princess is getting chubbier by the day. Tall even for a two months old! Took some pictures of her & me. Going to upload it 2moro perhaps. The camera is not with me ryte now. Dida brought it along for her outing with Adek & jaymelia 2dae.
Oh ya, Dan told me a secret. Not gona say it out, but whatever it is bro, i feel ya. I noe wat its like to be in dis situation.
Okie, i duno wat else to type. Im off to check my frensta.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
.wed.
It's a Wednesday. I woke up at 9-ish today. Considering that my tutee's examination is over, i nid not go tutoring anymore.. Yippiee! There's pros and cons of not going tuition though. Pros- no need to be mad at my tutee for not paying attention to wat i say, no need to be forced to eat by my granny. No offense to the food as it is yummy-licious but having to eat 3 meals a day is so not me. Especially when im weight-conscious. The cons- im not gonna be der often and im so gona miss my lil darling..Not matter how sad or crestfallen i am, she will definitely perk me up. The last words that she told me before i left for school last monday was, "Bye Nana. I love you."
Thats so sweet. 'I love you'. Hvnt heard that sentence for a while. Who am i kidding? I hvnt heard it for a very long time. Someone told me not to look for love. Let love find you. I think i kinda agree with it. And ija suggested that i should give those who have been woo-ing me a chance coz ryte now, im like pushing them away. Like when they call, i dun answer and wen dey text me, i dun reply. Oopsie. *sigh* Its just dat, maybe im not ready yet.
Anyways, guys are such a disappointment! And they are sooo.. LAZY! Im talking bout my bro. he didnt even lift a finger to help me clean the house. I did the housework all by myself today. Considering that dida is still under the weather. I even cooked. But a plain simple burrito meal. I mean, i juz made the ingredients ready and all they had to do was put spread it on the burrito, add mozarella cheese, roll it and put it the microwave for a minute? Sounds tempting? Wait till you try it. I tink it taste yummy! As i am a cheesy person, i put lotsa cheese on my burrito. Hehe
Im so slpy ryte now. I have class tonight. *yawn* And i have no idea what to wear today. Argh.
Btw, ive oready tried both shutterfly & fotopages. I tink, i prefer fotopages. Shutterfly is such a hassle. Have to do dis & dat. Tink im gona upload more pix. Till then... *muacks*
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
.recap.
The consequences for not typing anything for the last few days. Now i have to update more things. Not dat anybody care.. ryte? Oh well. First of all kudos to Man Utd for being able to beat Chelsea's 40 games unbeaten run. Believe me, i'm not a Red Devil. Im what pple call an ABC. Anything But Chelsea. So this win is a good bdae pressie for my past addiction. Happy bdae TUA! haha. Since we're still in the topic of soccer, WWFC lost to Home Utd in the RHB Singapore Cup FInal. So sad. The final score was 3-2.
I admit that i was disappointed in the result but it was a good game. Besides the company of my angels was enjoyable. All came clad in yellow or green to give full support to our beloved rams.
Even mazyguy came. I award him the 'best photographer' of the day! *ahaks* Consider that he had to take pictures for us. After the game, waited for Jay and we went to the market at Boon Keng. Had sup kambing. So long hvnt eat dat. Ratna joined us as well. Did i mention that as we were walking towards the market, i was surrounded by couples. Damn. i feel like such a disappointment. There were jay and camelia & dida and adek. Didnt want to interrupt their chat togetha, so walked alone during most of the journey.
The few days before altogether was simple and enjoyable. Due to complications of my family, the first day of eid, the siblings of lorong ah soo were seen going to wdls all by themselves. All of us tried to put a fake smile but the fake smile was replaced by smiles and laughter that was so... original. heh. Had fun camera-whoring.
The second day of eid, dida, dan & me went to my aunt plc at admiralty accompanied by aunt mar & my lil darlg. Even mazyguy came. Dun know whether the couple know this but aunt mar do approve. *ahaks*
3rd day of eid. Dan, me, dida & mazyguy were seen visiting my relatives in Tampines. Afterwhich we headed to Sengkang to Naja's hse. Its suddenly boring to type out my daily events. *yawn* It's too long. I decided to stop. Besides, my mission now is to upload the zillion pictures to the net and delete them from my computer as there's low disk space. But ive no idea where to upload it to. Multiply so limited. Ive got more than 150 pictures. *sheesh* I'll figure something out. Till then. Selamat hari raya still...
p/s- didn't noe blog also so beban! Cant seem to upload pictures here though i tried so many time. Arrrgh!
Friday, November 04, 2005
.battered.
So much for a brand new life. I mean, its a brand new life altogetha for me. But its for the worst! Not for the better. The whole situation is too overwhelming. I cannot even think bout how things are going to work out after this. Countless tears were shed, emotions were battered, affection is deprived. What next?
Today is the month of Syawal. The month where friends, family members alike, get togetha and seek forgiveness from their loved ones. Bury the hatchet, etc. I didnt get to do it this year. With my family dat is. There's only one word to describe them ryte now. Dysfunctional. The family is dysfunctional. Its not working anymore. First day of Aidilfitri, the mood at home is sombre & dull. The question is, 'what the hell m i doin at home on the first day of raya?'
It seems like everyone is battling their own emotions. A million and one things are probably running through their mind. Including mine. But instead of talking it out, everyone is just keeping to themselves. Ive cried a million tears over this. And still am crying. I've never tot that i'd nva enjoy hari raya celebrations. Its so gloomy. Did somebody died?
Well, the atmosphere just felt like it. I don't even know how to anticipate the coming events to come. It's not the same anymore. And it probably will never be.
Where is 'He' when i needed him the most?
Where is my 'He' - my shoulder to cry on? my pillar of strength? my confidante? the one dat i love most? the one that loves me?
The one that is gonna be there for me especially when i am going through the toughest times. Im drowning in my sorrow. Can sumbody save me? Anybody at all?
p/s- Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all those whom i know. Maaf Zahir Dan Batin. Let us bury the hatchet and start everything anew. May Allah bless us and forgive our sins. Amin.
