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@ 12:07 PM

My love..

The other day, i went to woodlands, accompanied by inda to meet my love.

Yes, peeps, im in love.

Very much in love.

Deeply in love.

I never thought i'd be in love again. Especially in Woodlands. The place where i thought is the most beban place ever!

*sorry org2 woodlands*

But then, i was wrong.

Introducing my new found love.

Baby Qaayd

Look how adorable he is. Soo chubby. Soo innocent. I feel like biting his cheeks. No doubt, ever since i saw him, Aunty Mar asked if i wanna carry him. Of course i do! And when he is in my arms, i cant help but keep kissing him.

kish kish

Jie Jie feeding Ti Ti.

This girl of mine is so grown up already. Heck, ive been watching her grow up since she was a baby. Now, she's a Ta Jie of 2.

BaoBei refuses to be photographed.

Me & my monsters aka my lil cuzzies.

Awww. Look at the way he is looking at me.

Baby Qaayd, im gonna pamper you just like how i pamper your other cuzzies.

Im gonna love you just like how i love all my other cuzzies.

Im gonna bring you out just like how i bring my other cuzzies out.

In other words, handsome, i love you.

@ 12:05 PM

Secret Love

I wonder what it would be like to slip my hands into yours.

I wonder what it would be like to whisper sweet nothings to your ear.

I wonder what it would be like to ruffle your hair.

I wonder what it would be like to be in your arms.

I wonder what it would be like to plant my lips softly against yours.

I wonder what it would be like to be with you.

These wonders are nothing but thoughts, as i sat watching you from afar days ago.

Those thoughts ae nothing but thoughts are not supposed to be expressed to the other party.

Those thoughts are to be kept a secret.

Thus, no rejection or dejection are felt by me.

I can only admire you from afar.

Secret Love

Artist : JoJo

Boy you’re so hard to believe

[Verse 1:]

Just a friend

That’s all I’ve ever been to you

Oh just a girl

Who wants to be the center of your world

But I ain’t got much to offer

But my heart and soul

And I guess that’s not enough

For you to notice me

I’m just a girl

And I guess that’s all

I’ll ever be to you

To you

[Chorus:]

I try to smile when

I see other girls with you

Acting like everything is ok

But ohh

You don’t know how it feels to be so in love

With someone who doesn’t even know

My secret love

[Verse 2:]

In my dreams I see us both together constantly

Why can’t you see

This love that’s here for you inside of me

Ohhh What do I have to do

For you to notice this

You look at her with love

With me it’s just friendship

I’m just your girl

And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you

To you

[Chorus:]

I try to smile when I see other girls with you

Acting like everything is ok

But ohh

you don’t know how it feels to be so in love

With someone who doesn’t even know

My secret love

[Bridge:]

What do you see in her

You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)

Boy you’re so hard to believe

Why do you show her love

But there’s none for me

Boy you don’t make sense to me

Cause I don’t have much to offer

But my heart and soul

And I guess that’s not enough

For you to notice me I’m just your girl

And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you

To you

[Chorus:]

I try to smile when I see other girls with you

Acting like everything is ok

(everything ain’t ok)

But ohh

you don’t know how it feels to be so in love

(so in love with you baby)

With someone who doesn’t even know

My secret love

Boy you’re so hard to believe

@ 12:54 PM

The loneliness

I struggled to breathe, with the occasional tears flowing.
I tried to compose myself, but to no avail.
I cried my eyes out.

It felt like the pain was squeezing every inch and ounce of this already batterred, tattered and torn heart.

I always wonder why im one of the miserable souls feeling this way.
It felt like being thrown off the universe, twice.

Why do i have to feel this way?

Why is it so hard for me to open up?

Why is it always so hard to be loved back?

Why is it that when im already willing to open up, already willing to give my heart and soul to someone, that person is just pulling a fast one on me?

I feel envious, full of admiration with a tinge of jealousy when the people around me are happily attached, happily married.

I often wonder whether i will be able to finally feel as the lucky one.

To have someone to hold, someone to be with, someone to be there for me during my ups and down, someone to share my joy and most importantly, someone to love me.

In this world, theres no perfection.

But at least, if i were to be with someone, he has to be PERFECT in my eyes. He has to be that special one.

The special one who is pleasing to the eye, a romantic who is full of sweet, lovely surprises, smart enough to have a political debate with me, funny enough to crack me up with jokes, sing to me every now and then, call me up just to tell me that he loves meand most importantly to accept me for who i am.

I was told that im choosy, that i have too high of an expectation for someone as mediocre as me. I was told to open my eyes and look.
I was told that i am, indeed secrectly loved. (though that person has yet owned up)
But then again, im glad he didnt coz i did not want to ruin the friendship and closeness that we both has established.

Then again, i vowed not to be with someone whom i regard as friend.

I was rebutted once again. It was said that even when you meet someone new you have to be friends before lovers. That, no doubt, is true. But its easier to go back to acquaintance coz u dont have mutual friends to begin with.

I could be wrong but those are my perceptions and thoughts.

Is there anyone out there for me coz its getting even harder and harder to breathe?

@ 5:14 PM

Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Im sorry readers. I cant fulfil or make do my promise in updating about my fantastic week.

This whole weekend, starting by tomorow, im supa busy getting ready for the wedding.

Yes, the highly anticipated wedding is here. One of closest friend whom i also regard as my sister is finally getting hitched!

Who would have thought? The guy whom she 'not interested' in ended up beng her choice as her life partner. *smiles*

Im soo glad u found ur happiness babe.

Anyhoos, i know i promised lotsa pictures but i aint got the time to upload it.

Reason being, right this very moment, im waiting to apply henna on my fingers.

*org lain nak kawin aku yg sibok2!*

hehe. *mentel mode on*

This past few days have been busy spending time with the bride to be. Coz im the bridesmaid mah.

Just today, after work, we headed to Geylang to buy henna and then to Tampines to get my contacts, have our dinner and bought lingerie. *giggles*

*winks to ija*

Ok, ok.

I cant blog anymore.

I need to get this henna done and get some shut eye.

Im soo sleepy. And i have lotsa agenda tomoro.

Like going to the doc early in the morning. Getting my stuff ready for the sleepover at ija's plc.
Stuff meaning a whole lot of stuff. Like my three costumes for Saturday and Sunday.
Susah jugak jadi bridesmaid.

But, before i go, remember the other day, i mentioned that i went to this hip hop gig and got sabo-ed.

Well, well, well. The video is up on multiply. Click HERE to view.

Im soo embarrassed by it hokay. But im willing to share. I mean, come on. Lotsa hip hoppers der rooting for me as i struggled to get dem to make noise. Lol.

Whatever. *rolls eyes*

Enjoy the video.

And i will be back next week perhaps. After the wedding, of coz. Taa.

@ 9:56 PM

Psssstttt

I wanna blog!

I really do!

I wanna post up the gazillion pictures i took.

I wanna post up pictures of me & my babes.

We had a SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION for QTB, a member of HSCB.

She was kinda surprised when i told her about it coz she sais dat its way over but then, it aint over till the fat lady sings!

In this case, it aint over till HSCB have our very own celebration! Just the three of us!

I pampered myself a bit yesterday.

I bought shoes! Something which i havent bought in the longest time.

Here's my brand new, simple but very nice looking black heels.

Something for me to wear for ija's wedding.

I know i already have a black heels (which i bought for raya) but this one is way comfortable. *smiles*

Oh and guess what? My Pooh bear, which Nipz & Zul bought me for my birthday last year has a companion.

Who is his companion?

None other than his best friend, TIGGER!!

I was excited when i saw Tigger at Kiddy Palace yesterday. I grabbed it and hugged him tight. Bought it for only 9.90 SGD. Cheap ryte?

So now, my baby pooh has a companion.

And i, too, have something new to hug at night.

I've unleashed the inner child in me kan?

Will be back to update on another different side of me yea.

Till then,

xoxo.

@ 3:05 PM

A promise sealed with a kiss.

Even though, the school hols is here. I still have to go back for the 2008 lesson planning.

Im in charge of k1s, fyi.

Theres pretty much a lot of things to be done especially with the impending wedding.

I promise i will be back to update on my fantabulous sunday.

I promise i will do a photo log coz i took a whole lot of pixies on that sunday!

I promise i will blog about me goin to the most beban place ever - WDLNDS.

I promise i will blog about how nervous i was stepping into that interchange.

I promise i will blog about how heart wrenching to see him walk away.

I promise i will blog about how much i LOVE him. (smiles)

I promise i will blog about how silly i acted on stage infront of 50 odd people, trying to warm up the crowd. (thx to Qtb)

I promise. I promise. I promise.

And with that, i sealed it with a kiss.

*muah*

@ 7:11 PM

Saddest day of my WORKING life

Its finally the last day of the year. I mean working with my kiddies year.

Not only was i anticipating the day, i was also dreading it.

In the bus while on the way to work, it struck me that technically, its my last day working at blk 12. Just like how its the last day for my kiddies.

Guess what?

I cried. My girls cried.

It was heart warming to see my girls hugging and kissing me.

I thought i could control myself but somehow, my tears cant. It trickled down my cheeks when my girls told me that they are going to miss me, that they love me and that they are going to call me if they have any problems and such.

Of course this emotional girl cant take it.

My boys, of course, were ignorant. Except for one, he was blinking back tears looking at me and the girls who was crying.

Yes, i complained a lot about my noisy kiddies. No matter how noisy or irritating they are, they still made an impact in my life.

I took over from Shirley when they were in k1 and till they graduated. They are my beloved children.

I still feel like crying now when i recap today's incident. Seriously, the girls who was crying uncontrollably griped my heart real bad. I went over to them and hugged them real tight.

Parents was also thanking me profusely for teaching their kids. Even during the Parent Teacher's Conference.

It made my day to make a difference.

Im soo glad i chose this line.

At the end of the day, even though the pay sucks, its the passion that matters.

My passion for teaching and nurturing these young minds urged me to strive on and be a better teacher.

Somehow, i dont want to say that im a good teacher yet anymore. Im learning and i still WANT to learn.

I learnt quite a lot in my experience at this centre.

Next year, at the other centre, i hope to learn more.

Im still very much an introvert at heart but working as a teacher makes me learn how to be more friendly and open to others. God's willing, i will make it.

Btw, i did mention that i gave my number to my kiddies ryte.?

I received my first call from one of them today.

She told me that when she reached home she cried coz she wanted me to teach her next year and that she doesnt want another teacher.
(cue: awwwwwwwwwww)

I pacified her and told her that her new teacher will love her just like me.

k2a

k2b

Good luck in your future endeavours kiddies!!

Teacher diyana loves you all.

@ 3:57 PM

It's a BOY...!!!

Introducing, the latest addition to my family.

Chung Kai De, Qaayd.

Isnt he just adorable..?

Today, he is only 14 days old.

When was he born..? You do the math.

@ 3:23 PM

Update

A quickie.

Dyna is on the verge of losing her voice.

Dyna is having her Parents Teachers meeting tomorrow. (and she is losing her voice)

Dyna has to OT tomorrow because of the ecogarden thingy. (bleargh)

Dyna cant wait for the holidays!

Dyna WON 2 songs from PLAYA at the OSHOW on RIA 89.7 FM. Just today hokay!

Dyna is exhilarated.

Dyna is hungry.

Lastly, DYNA couldnt be bothered to please people.

@ 6:33 PM

Backdated entry

First and foremost, i would like to say sorry for the lack of picture updates.

Reason being i was uber busy with work.

Its the final term and without knowing, its just gonna be one more week til i say goodbye to my kiddies.

Just today, i found tears in my eyes as i was talking to my clingy yet favorite student, zi xin.

Here's an excerpt of our conversation.

TD: ZX, next week is the last week and then after that i wont be seeing u anymore u know. R u goin to be sad?

ZX nodded.

TD: Are you going to cry?

ZX nodded again.

I looked at that adorable face of hers and i see tears brimming in my eyes. Oh gosh, i wont be seeing this girl anymore. I am so gonna miss her soo much.

ZX looked at me and said, "Teacher, u look like u going to cry."

I told her to hush and stick out my tongue at her.

That's how outgoing my relationship with her is. I can talk to her about anything at all. She's the apple of my eye and words cant even express how much im gonna miss that dimply smile of hers.

Thankfully, ive taken a lot of pictures of her so i think, im good.

That aside, i shall blog about my raya expenditure.

Its way backdated but better late then never kan..?

Once again, a big thank you to all those who attended.

I wasnt that much of a good host and i didnt expect this much of a turnout. It was that good that my food finishes by 8 and i had to order pizza. Bottom line, i wasnt a good host!

Insyallah, next year, i'll be a better one and i promise there will be more food. The difference is that, i dont think i'll be cooking again for a party of people. Penat tau! Must wake up early and go shopping and such.

I should stop rambling and savour you with eye candy pictures.

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the macaroni that i fried and mama's nasi goreng kampung!

my speciality- sambal tumis udang, bbq chicken n ayam masak merah.

My first two guests.

with liyana.

with fariza.

Ive been frens with these girls for over a decade. Way back since primary school. Missing my 2 other babes.

around 6 plus, these people appeared at my doorstep.
my WSS clicks.

my wonder colleagues(with their partners) dropped by too.

cik gayah & her lovely daughters.

HPC babes.

The soon to be married couple came by as well.

They are getting married and im supa dupa excited can..?

Wedding bells are also ringing from two of my other colleagues. *wink wink*

Ija, dis is the picture that i was telling u about just now..

Nice tak..?

Oh, how could i ever forget to post up his picture!

He came by with his bro and best fren.

Who..?

Him of course.

That pretty sums up my open house on the 20th.

The next weekend, me & mentel went raya visiting. Thx for accompanying me bimbo! lol.

mentel & bachin.

Ok, dun ask me y she calls me bachin. Go ask her!

We dropped by ianz plc.

With my bestie.

U chuber eh, pakai la baju kurung, org dtg umah. Lol.

Btw, btw, lil dini was still sleeping when we arrived so she was pretty much oblivious to surrounding. So when she woke up, she was, as usual, cranky.

Didnt even wanna take picture. So, when it was time to leave, i showed her the green packet, she started to smile ok! Even kissed and salam-ed me when told. Ish ish. Mata duitan la. Ikut mama dia eh..? *giggles*

Kidding k darl.

yes ween.. you see miss vain. *bluek*

The other day, forgot which day, yana text asking whether we would like to come over her crib for an impromptu cum raya visiting.

I said YES of coz i met up with my 3 lovelies. Missing the two missys. Ou meet up has always been incomplete of late.

the attendees, my childhood frens.

Ive already posted pictures of the other two earlier in the entry. Therefore, no pixs of them! Hehe.

Btw, here's ain. Ive known her since kindergarten hokay. This is my kawan paling lama skali!

NOticed how we went visiting in ordinary clothes. Tak senonoh kan kiter!~

Nxt raya outing was with my beloved HPC. Missing in action was our cip! I joined them after the 2nd house coz i had to work dat saturday. NOnetherless, HPC is still hirok pikok.

with darling sri. (I still tink u look sexy la darling. hehe)

hpc babes

hpc hunks.

carpling peeps n of coz, dida's shadow taking our pix!

What were we doing..?

For us to know. Fou you to find out!

group pix b4 we went our separate ways.

My last raya outing for this month of Syawal was with the WSS peeps. And boy i had soo much fun. These crazy and wacky peeps of mine made my day a million times. I am soo thankful to Allah for bestowing upon me thses lovely people. Hopefully this 9 years of friendship with u guys will blossom till eternity.

More eye candy pictures. Well, only selected. I wish i could upload all coz we took quite a handful but time dont permit and it will be a lot of hassle for me. So only a few yea. The rest, i will upload to my multiply. Insyallah!~ When im not lazy to do so.

Oh and for the record. No captions for the following pictures. You can make up any story u want. Haha!

So how..? Created ur own story already?

I think, i have already redeem myself this time. 33 pictures and 1 lengthy entry!

Im so freaking tired and hungry ryte now. Gona grab something to eat.

I will be back. Promise. Insyallah.

Much love,

dyna.

@ 9:29 PM

My confession

"i loved u at first look.

i loved u more when we're 2geta.

i loved u still and will always will.

Even when you're not der.

But i noe ure happy n its ok.

Bcoz sum1 taught me, Love means letting go."

I saw those lines in a movie and i wept uncontrollably. How true.~

P/s- Get well soon, darling eila.

P/p/s- I'll blog soon about the rayer thingy ok. Im kinda in a very lazy mood right now.

P/p/p/s- Sorry inda had to cancel plans with you today. Told ya i was in a very lazy mood.

Well peeps, i'll be back soon, i hope.

Much love,

dyna.

@ 7:53 PM

Back For Good

Its the 5th of November already.

As promised, i should return.

Well, i have returned.

The initial plan is to blog about my raya outings with lovely peeps but that shall be on hold coz i received a really ridiculous msg from facebook.

Yea, im very active in that facebook webbie now.

What ridiculous msg i received?

Well, apparently, a certain gf of my ex msged me thru there. Acting all high and mighty, trying to bring me down with her criticms and how she felt sorry for me yada, yada, yada.

And me knowing me, i WOULD have post of that lengthy msg of hers but since her bf is a really gd fren of mine, i wouldnt wanna embarrass her would i..?

But im sure u guys would wanna know, what made that gf of his msg me.

Ok, i guess some of u have known that i have a really close bf turned good buddy. We are really that close and it is really a platonic relationship altogether.

I swear in the name of ALLAH that i dont feel that sort of feelings to him. Yes, i do love him. But not as a girl to boy thing. BUT as a very good friend. For goodness sake girl, ive known him for 9 years hokay.

And for the record, the time when he was my ex bf was the time when we both were in sec 3. It was eons ago and we dont feel the same way as before. Goodness gracious, those days when we were together, we werent even serious!

And you say we should forget the memories..? What memories..? We dont even have any except for the fact that we ARE really good friends. And, what do you mean by what serves..? Is it wrong for me to tell the world that i use to date him but we can get on really well right now..? What is wrong with that..?
So now, i ask you, why didnt u msg my twin sister and ask why she's telling the whole wide webbie world that she too used to date ur bf! Ridiculous i must say.

Yes, no one gives a damn about it, so i dun understand y u shld!

Maybe the reason why she composed an essay msg for me is that she wasnt happy that i wrote a caption of a picture of me n that ex n my gal pal saying, 'my hubby to be at 35.lol'

I meant for it to be a joke coz it is a joke.

One day, me n dat particular ex of mine was hanging out and we just started talking about relationships, marriage and stuff.
It came to a point where we said to each other IF, by the age of 35 we didnt get married to anyone, we would marry each other. And we both cracked up after that! It was damn hilarious.

We didnt take any of what we said seriously but we would joke around here and there, thinking nothing of it.

But then, this has to happen.

Im pretty much filled with tons of emotions right this very moment.

To her,
Im sorry that im really close with ur bf. Im even sorry that u have to be all paranoid and stuff.
You dont go around msging pple telling her to respect herself. I do respect myself and that fact that ur bf is my friend and i wouldnt jeopardize his relationship.

But then again, i know for the fact that girls are sensitive and paranoid creatures so due to respect, (not for her but her bf) i brought down the caption of the hubby to be thingy.

Its official.

All my ex-es gfs HATES me.

glitter-graphics.com

@ 12:35 PM