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Heart

Dear Heart,

I love you. I really do. We've been with each other for so long now, you'd think i know you best.
But it looks like i still have to get to know you better.
Im sorry, heart. Im so so sorry for causing you all this heartbreak and misery and aching and loneliness.
I never meant for it to happen. I hope you know dat.
I love you way too much and it breaks me to see you in this state.
Let's 4get all about love and concentrate on US, aite.

Yours,
dee.

Hint: -

@ 7:19 AM

Secret Crush

To my secret crush,

Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you.

It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing.

Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.

Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.

My world is spinning; I can feel defeat, why can't I sleep? Why does my throat close whenever you speak? My heart breaks just to be around you. I take in the way you move, the way you talk, and the way you smell whenever you are around. My eyes directed down when your gaze falls upon me, that bashful smile - I want you so badly! This tension, it kills me. My unspoken attraction is enough to fill up volumes.

How can I get close to you? I'm too shy to talk to you; so at this moment it feels safer to watch you from afar with no rejections. You have taken up residence in my mind. I want so badly for you to tell me everything I want to hear but you won't and you definitely can't. I want you to tell me that you want me, but you won't and you definitely can't. Every time I think of you I can feel the butterflies fluttering inside me. You don't notice me or the way I look at you; maybe it's 'cause you only see me as a friend and nothing more, but when I look at you, nothing could turn my eyes away.

But, as I sit here, typing this out, the sun rising into the horizon, my heart sinks. My pain is my entire fault; when will I learn? You would never want me. I'm not perfect, beautiful, or anything important. I have to let the dream of you and me go, for I am a girl with an unrequited crush.

Forever be ur crush,
.dee.

@ 6:36 AM

How to Make Anyone Fall in Love with You

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I bought a book yesterday.

Its called How to Make Anyone Fall in Love with You.

I love it. =p

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Anyways, i got the front seat yesterday. All thanks to the McQueen.

Its a lil cold. Remind me to bring my jacket everytime im out. Lol.

Anyways, while in the car yesterday, Mama called.

Here's the snippet of the conversation.

Mama: Nana, nana pat mana?

Me: Nana otw back ah ni.

Mama: Nana gi mana?

Me: Nana gi mkn.

Mama: Dgn sape? (Tak penah2 ok!)

Me: Dgn ija, azly dgn arif.

Mama: Kau tau, baba kau ckp kau asik balik mlm kau ni da ada matair eh.

Me: Hahahahaha. Mana ader. Jgn merepek ah.

After that conversation, i laughed aloud in the car and ija, of coz wanted me to share. But i soo cannot say la coz there were too many people around.

*blush*

Okay, gona check my mail now.

Toodles.

@ 6:24 AM

Monday blues.

I cant really say that my monday was blues-y coz it was pretty interesting. Lol.

Anyways, wanted to do a photo log (suddenly addicted to it la) but cant coz the pictures are all not in.

Inda & Ianz!!!!! (shouts out loud)

I had a very good weekend but will blog later with all pictures.

I promise you wont be disappointed. Hee.

Am singing to Jojo- How to touch a girl.

I soo love the starting part- 'I think i could like you. I oready do.'

Errr, so contrary to past entries and tags, just for the record, im not in LOVE yet ok. But there could be spark!

Ooooo, i just love creating controversies.

Start speculating people. =p

@ 10:58 AM

Birthday shoutout

Today, my fav cuzzie turns 14!!

She is younger than me but we clicked soo well.

We can talk just about anything under the sun.

Heck, dis lil makcik can also be my gossip kaki.

Lol.

Dear Yuyu,
Happy 14th Birthday!
You have grown form a cute lil baby to a beautiful young adult.
Please do know that i will always be here for you.
Luv ya babe!

@ 1:09 AM

To be or not to be.

Hmmm.

Everyone seems so excited with me falling in love.

Maybe its not soo bad at all.

If they are happy, im happy!

But the most important thing is me being happy!

So, maybe i should really work on it.
*smiles*

@ 12:59 AM

Photo Log

Im in a blog-with-pictures kind of mood so here i am!

If u've noticed its been a while since ive posted like a decent entry with pictures and all.

Today, i just felt like doing so.

And it took me about 15 minutes to photo shop some pictures, crop, put frame, edit a bit here & der. =p

Now, its all ready so here goes.

(macam da lama gitu tak do so like excited abit la)

*dee jakun!!*

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Neways, yesterday after work, went out with the bride & groom to be to supposedly discuss the wedding details.

And i added the word 'supposedly' there coz, we didnt la ok.

No wedding details coz the groom was bz playing psp & the bride was bz matchmaking.

*bluekk*

We didnt get any work done!!

So anyways, we headed to the car wash to get McQueen cleaned and polished.
It was really dirty (sorry guys but its really true lor) so they just had to clean it.

We succumbed to cam whoring while waiting. As per normal.

Then we went sraight to meet the best man, Arif at his crib.

Dis shot was actually supposed to be showing the road into Arif's crib. We wanted to show the background but, we were disappointed. But dun fret. You'll get a better & clearer view from the next picture.

Better now..

We're sumwer at Siglap area. You know where all those bungalows are..?
Anyways, after Ija took this shot, she said this, " You should pout this (pic) at your frensta. Den caption you put, 'Im moving on" While pointing to the road sign.
Cheekily i asked her, "But move on go left or right?"

Lol.

I think im laughing at my own jokes. So i betta stop and continue.

We practically had to beg azly to take dis shot for us.

Why?

Coz he was busy doing this...

Bagus kan..? Duk tepi longkang main psp!

If you're wondering where's Arif, well, he was getting ready.
Kalah pengantin!

I cant believe they are getting married!!!!

We headed to bugis after to have our dinner. Initial plan was to catch a movie but me & ija was against the idea. The guys looked pretty much bumped but they went along with us.

We had a bit of window shopping for hantarans and such.

I, on the other hand bought two pairs of heels.

Like, what's new..?

We dont know where to head to so kita org step nak carik hantu la at thomson road at the police academy tu. But saw none. Thank god!

Oh, and it was only 9 plus ah so i guess its still not dat scary lor. hehe.

Then we headed to Mediacorp to watch Anugerah. NOT!

We were going to meet KC about the dee-jaying thing for ija's wedding.

And since we were early, we saw a lot of people flocking out of the building. All of them just came out from watching Anugerah.

After what i observed yesterday, i think, Anugerah is a MAt & Minah show lah ok.

Don't ask why i said that, but i think if you guys watch you should know la. And im not even done with the audience. But not that i wanna talk about them. I just wanna show more pictures we took while waiting for KC.

They started the ball rolling.

Groom to be & his best man.

And finally.......

Bridesmaid & Best Man.

Yay. Ive finished blogging. Three cheers.

Will blog again when i feel like it. =p

Toodles

@ 11:23 AM

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day tomorrow.

A day to celebrate mother's love.

A Celebration In Honor of All Mothers.

Every year without fail, 13th of May is the day where all mothers around the world celebrate.

And every year, days before Mother's Day, all children will be looking for prezzies to give to their Moms. I am no exception.

Considering that i have over-budget on my spending this month, i have no choice but to think of an affordable, simple yet precious gift for dearest Mama.

But, i have already kept in mind to get her a GUESS bag next week, after i get my pay. *smiles*

So what did i get for mama?

Well, i bought a crystal frame for Mama.
And, i editted this pix to be added in the frame.

Take a look?

What do you think?

Its really simple but it took me hours to get inspired.

I swear its the most utmoset difficult task ive ever did.

But i love editting. Not that its my forte or anything but i do it for fun.

Not anymore though.

Well, actually, me & bestie starting a biz on making cards for any occasions.
Bestie even set up a multiply account for the biz.

We even had one or two deals oready.

I feel bad actually coz bestie has been busy with it and im not.

Sorry sweetheart.

You know, ive been busy with the stupid portfolio and i will make time for biz now that im done with it aite.

Yes people, im finally done with my portfolio.

(Three cheers)

And guess what?

My centre got the green code!!!

*jumps for joy*

That audit lady came over again yesterday and checked the portfolio that me & the rest of the teachers slaved through and spent sleepless nites on.

And she gave us the green code.

Is that cool or is that cool?

Heh.

Anyways, im gonna change a new song on my blog very very soon.

Check it out aite.

P/s- Im into Daughtry, still.

@ 5:19 AM

Between chinese show & blogging

Im currently addicted to the chinese show on channel 8 at 9pm. Its called Mars versus Venus.

A very cute show that depicts couples all around.

And the show is good. It really shows how couples act around each other- newlyweds and couples who have been married for years.

Its really cute and since im so in-a-getting-married kind of mood, i juz lurve watching it.

Contradicting huh considering that i dun even have a bf.

Well, sumone closest to me is getting married soon and im like soo busy myself preparing what to wear for the dinner and all.

Its seems surreal at first coz i told the bride that i will be too extravagant coz im just her bridesmaid but she said that its bcoz im the bridesmaid that i have to dress up.

Shouldnt that be for you..?

Lol.

But yea, im psyched.

Been going through bridal magz to get inspiration for my dress.

OOOOhhhhh.. i soo cant wait!

And guess what?

She got her own house. And she even got a room ready for me.

Is that great or what?

Looks like i'll be spending more time at her crib rather than mine. Lol.

Anyways, i think im too occupied with the chinese show that i cant concentrate what i wanna type.

Will blog again soon.

Toodles.

@ 12:19 PM

Over You- Daughtry

Esp for ija.
She wanna noe whats's the song all about.
So here goes.

Now that it's all said and done,

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down,

Like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath.

I fell too far, was in way too deep.

Guess I let you get the best of me

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.'

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,

Dragged the memories down the hall,

Packed your bags and walked away.

There was nothing I could say.

And when you slammed the front door shut,

A lot of others opened up,

So did my eyes so I could see

That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.'

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.

Well I'm putting my heart back together,'

Cause I got over you.

Well I got over you.

I got over you.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you.

I'm singing along. R u?

@ 3:42 AM

Fat or non-fat..?

Look at that picture of me..

Im FAT!!

Ughness.

*faints*

Time to go on a strict diet regime.

P/s- That pix was taken during the movie outing with the sibs last friday (including bro in law)
More pixs will be uploaded soon.
Need to complete the portfolio thing.
Like what's new ryte..?

@ 10:56 AM

Daughtry- Over You

I have a new song. On my playlist.

Its called Over You by Daughtry.

I loved it! One of my current favorite.

It's just one of those times when i changed my fav song every other week.

Or is there a hidden meaning behind it..?

I dunno.

You tell me.

@ 10:45 AM

Have a break, Have a Kit Kat.

I listed the lamest title ever.

For some reason, which is the reason ive been staying up late, waking up early, doin all those portfolios, do more of thinking, thinking, thinking is driving me absolutely crazy.

For the record, here i am in the office on a Saturday!

And it is 4.00pm in the afternoon.

Have been in since morning trying to finish up these portfolios.

Im nearly done with the morning class. But have yet to complete the afternoon ones.

And that's another 20 for me! Oh dear.

Ive been thinking too much about work and so super stressed about it that pimples are emerging. Heck even eye bags are appearing. And im not the type who easily have eyebags coz i usually sleep well!

But this has to happen now.

An ex bf told me that all work is stressful, its just a matter of how i handle it.

Wow!

He has so matured. Ryte inda? *winks*

Since im taking a break from the portfolios, i tot i'd blog a while b4 getting back to work.

How am i coping?

Well, ok i guess.

Bottom line is, lets just say that im very very good at faking it.

Maybe i should do a career switch. Perhaps go into acting..?

Then maybe i can meet my Elvin Ng everyday!!

Haha.

Lame, i noe.

Btw, i went on an impromptu shopping trip when i was on a lunch break at bugis earlier.

Bought a new pair of shades & top!!

I spent alot this month.

Can't wait for pay on the 20th.

There's a whole lot that i wanted to buy.

Wokay, the portfolios are calling out my name.

Here i go again, doing more thinking and filing. And grooving to music. Heh.

Till next time, toodles.

@ 7:06 AM