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I miss you

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
Here i am, sitting around wondering if i meant anything to him.
Thinking if he ever cares about me.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him.
Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise me by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him missing the final episode of our favourite show.
Laying on my bed, thinking of the last time we went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, our dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him online.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.

I dont wanna feel the way that i do.
I just wanna be right here with you.
I dont wanna see, see us apart.
I just wanna say it straight from my heart.

I MISS YOU.
you're just a part of me, i cant let go.

@ 1:21 PM

The week

Its FINALLY a friday.
Friday has always been my favorite day of the week.

I always looked forward to friday especially after a long hard day at work.

And it really was a damn bladdy tiring week.

Didnt help that i had to collect a shitload of money for the excursion and books on a Monday.
(I hate collecting money fyi)
Didnt help that i had diarrhea and bad migraine on Tuesday.
Didnt help that i was down with high fever on a Wednesday whilst on the job.
Didnt help that i was all emotional and kept crying at the slightest thing on a Thursday.
(On a brighter note, i went shopping by myself at Compass Point)

It didnt, really didnt help at all.

So, today, the plan was to head to town for a few sessions of pool and dinner at Lucky Plaza.
Sudden craving for Nasi Ayam Penyet.

But, everything had to cancel as Dearest Ween came down with a fever.
Get well soon dear!~

Therefore, i trudged home reluctantly on a Friday.

Im spending Friday evening at home.
Unbelievable!

It could be a blessing in disguise though.

My 9pm show, La Femme, (chinese drama serial) will air its last episode tonight.

So, i definitely will get to watch it.

This entry will end abruptly here.

@ 6:53 PM

The holidays are over!

This could be probably be the last entry before i start being busy with school.

When i say school, it means work for me.

See, im a kindergarten teacher.

Though, at times, people do say, that i really dont look like one. Heh.

School starts tomorrow therefore today its a r&r day before i start to get busy.

Entries will be short and sweet.

Ive seem to have forgot how my entries were especially when im in a veru busy mode.
But if im not wrong, my blog will be stagnant.
Meaning, not much of an entry every now and then.

Second part of the semester is here and i can guarantee you i will be so uber busy.
Thankfully, im not taking any graduation class this year.

Time seems to fly doesnt it.
6 months has already passed.

Alhamdullilah, i thought i couldnt adjust myself in my new centre but all seems to go well.

It might be stressful be a wee stressful than before but then again, it helps me lose weight! Heh.
I noe, i noe. Not good.

So today was supposed to be another cycling week BUT, this girl here was sooo tired coz she had to work on a SUNDAY morning, the moment she reached home, she was all groggy.
Despite that, she still went online and guess what, she fell asleep with the lappie on her lap.
She was lying down for your info.
And believe me, it wasnt a pretty sight.

So, i guess i just will have to spend my SUNDAY at home. Not so bad coz i need to get my energy for tomoro. Kiddos, here i come!

Before i start rambling on and on, i wanna start on my last few days of enjoyment.
It was realy enjoyable one despite the fact that ive YET to finish my term 4 lesson plans.

Well what can i say?
I really am a PROCRASTINATOR.

Last friday, i made my way to Vivo to spend some quality time with HSCB.
Usually, on a friday, we will usually hit town so we decided to have a change of venue.

Let the pictures do the talking, yea.

Yours truly. Clad in black.
Inda keep commenting, "Babe, whats up with you and black nowadays?"

I replied, "I followed my mood."

I dont need to elaborate why, do i?

I heart them.

The sweetest picture we've ever took, ryte babe?

the artyfarty i adore.

We had dinner at Banquet and we ate over gd and endless conversations.

And we realised that one of us here is a minah kawin kawin. *giggles*

Inda.

yours truly.

ween.

So, which one of us is the minah kahwin2?

Hint: Its NOT ME! *peace*

After dinner we camwhored a little. Not!
We camwhored alot outside Vivo.

inda & myself.

inda and ween.

ween and myself

the panda

the star

the butterfly

I would like to end this photo log with the best shot of the day.
Taken by my aspiring photographer of coz.

With her efficient skills and the lovely elements created by GOD (including myself, of coz *gags*), this picture was shot.

If you think that's the end of the entry, you are SOOOO wrong.
There's more to come.

Remember, i once mentioned that i redeemed a Swensen's voucher.
So i brought one of my bestfriend to have a feast!

And feast did we have! Who did i bring along?

my preggie bestfren & HOT MUMMY to be!

me with those delish cheese sticks. yummy!

ija with her fish n chips

Told ya we had a feast!

We didnt finish our meal and we packed the rest to go.
And, we paid only 9 bucks for the meal.
Thanks to my $40 voucher. Hehe.

We headed outside to catch the men in uniform marching out from the waterfront stadium as there was a full dress rehearsal.

While waiting, we slipped in a cam whoring session of course!

Ija's glowing.

We looked so gorgeous here. Haha.

Finally, here comes the MEN in uniform.
But before that...

The traffic had to stop first.

Did i mention that Ija's hubby is one of the GOH for this year's NDP?
Well, we finally spotted him.
Can you?

There he is, smiling from ear to ear when he saw his wifey.

Self shot, with the MEN behind us.

Oh btw btw... we saw dis...

Fireworks...
You know i love fireworks!

Later that night, i bid goodbye to ija and made my way to SubStation to watch my gf and her band in action.

Quasimodo.
Spot ween?

Outside substation.

HSCB, my loves.

Finally, are pictures are in.
Gosh, it took me an hour or so to finish blogging.

Did u hear the new song on my blog.

I am soo in love with it.

Its called Maybe by Jay Sean.

I love it! I love it!

Anyhoos, just for the record, im very much SINGLE.
Open to options.

Trying to fall in love.

Make me fall in love anyone...?

@ 7:06 PM

Deeeeee-russsshhhh

Ok, firstly, please dont ask me what the title means.

I, myself have no freaking idea what it means.

Im just being silly making these stupid noises.

Finally, finally, it rained today!

I was having tutoring when it rained uber heavily.

And my face lit up when i received an sms from A...

Oops, not Mr A.

I saw Sharon after the longest time today.

ANd guess what, guess what?

She's PREGNANT.
Woohoo.

The three of us, Ija, Sharon and myself are going out for dinner soon before she fly off to Dubz.
Im soo gonna miss that naggy queen.

Oh, btw, a colleague mentioned that ive gained weight!

Oh sheesh.
Come to think of it, i think i might have gained some unfashionable weight during the school holidays.

And its all because of this lady here.

That's ija.
My best friend and my sister.
She's pregnant btw.
But she doesnt look pregnant right?

That's coz she doesnt want to eat!
I have to eat with her and then she'll eat.
Thus the fact that ive gained weight.

So, IJA, i blame YOU. =p

Thankfully, school starts next week.
I'll get to start working my ass off and hopefully lose a lil weight. Which im kinda confident of doing. Heh.

Digressing.

Is globe trackker playing a trick on me?

Look at the number of people reading my blog all the way from USA..?

@ 5:45 PM

Fyi

For your info, things havent perked up.

Its still stagnant.

And someway or rather, i received a call this morning and it seems like things have reached the climax.

Mama is trying to fix it, i think.

And i foresee a CRYING FEST soon.

Heck, a tear rolled down my cheek after i ended the call.

Bottom line is, ITS NOT OVER!

Geesh, whatever happened to the happy pill that i popped in last night?

No, im not on drugs or anything of some sort.

I was just happy.

Ask Inda . I called her and started blabbering on things like that smart cutie i got to know on myspace.
And kept her updated on the guy that asked for my number at ecp that day. And how i differiantiate him and the other guy.

Well, INDA did say that the guy who asked for my number, wasnt my type.
Spot on babe!~

He really wasnt.
He is like those typical MALAY guys out there.

Those really werent my type.

Not trying to ckp besar (talk big) or anything but i do have my preferences and he wasnt in that list.

That aside, here's some pictures i would like to share with you guys.

Taken last Sunday.

An impromptu meet up with this bimbo of mine who has just recovered. And she was late!

Babe, lucky ive known you for ages. If this was a first date, i would have left! *bluek*

I loike the pinky bike. Yay.

My cycling date.

Our pit stop - the jetty.

Didnt realise my beauty mark aka mole was that prominent on the left side of my forehead.

Shades on!

Awesome bike!

Me and Inda sat at the jetty for about 20 minutes, soaking in the fresh air while listening to sappy love songs from my jukebox aka hp. In silence.

It was a beautiful scenary, i must say.
Ive been feeling down of late.
Im gonna make a retreat more to the beach.

Oh gosh, i miss my calmity pleasure at Marina.

=(

@ 10:47 AM

longing.

Ders a few people that i miss at this point of time.

One of which is that cutesy girl ryte der above.

I just miss her so.

@ 8:17 PM

emotions

Time check: few minutes to 1 am.

A million and one emotions are going inside me ryte this very moment.

Emotions that kept me in a daze.

Emotions that can just leave me quiet all of a sudden.

Sometimes, i, myself am not sure what is going on inside my head.

Everything, just everything seems to be going wrong.

And at times, i dont know who to turn to.

Granted, i have my gfs.

But i dont want to burden them with my problems.

=(

I really am feeling very low at this point of time.

Angry too.

Sad.

Disappointed.

It seems to be falling apart.

How on earth am i going to trust? Not only myself, but everyone around me?

Digressing.

'Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you'

Someone's crying herself to sleep tonight. :'(

@ 12:58 AM

Punked

Rio Ferdinand plays Ashton Kutcher.

Have you seen it yet?

He went all the way punking EPL stars.

This one is for keeps.

Click Here to see Ferdinand punking David Beckham.

Beckham even apologised for his language.
Cuteness!~

And Here to see him getting back at Wayne Ronnie.
You'll see that i didnt purposely typed his name like that.
View the video and you'll see.
Colleen his gf/finacee nearly gave it away.
She was giggling non stop. Ish!~

And lastly click here to see Peter Crouch of Liverpool get punk'ed.
Robbie Fowler is in it as well.
Crouchy was so trying to suppress his laugh.

More footballers such as shaun wright phillips, gary neville, ashley cole and david james are getting punk'ed by Rio Ferdinand and its all on youtube.
Go type ferdinand and punked or something and u'll get to see them.

Yes, yes, im into soccer, fyi.

@ 11:51 AM

A dream or nightmare?

Today's agenda?
To finish 9 lesson plans for term 3.

Where?
Ija's crib.

Am i confident to finish term 3 lesson plans?
A lil bit.

So what should i do now?
Go bathe. My hair is in a mess and i look so 'masam'. =p

Not before i rant a few things.

I was just about to go to sleep when dida knocked on the door to pass my M1 bill.
Yea, that number which i rarely used.
I thought that maybe its just gonna be 50 ish. Coz i rarely use it.
But i thought wrong!

It was nearly 200 bucks la ok.

I was so mad!
Like wth la.

So i called M1, only to be put on hold for 10 mins and when the customer service officer asked what i needed, i told her that i want to terminate the line.
She told me that since im stil under contract, i will have to pay 300 bucks just for terminating.
Arrrgh!

I hate M1.

I really do.
They are really ripping me off.

I only managed to cool down when i redeemed my Sun Perks points.
What did i redeem?
$40 worth of Swensens Voucher.
Heh.
I felt better right after.

Anyhoos, i had a dream or was it a nightmare?
I dreamt that Mr A has a gf.
And he ignored me really bad.
I can feel my emotions there and then.
It hurts so bad and i was so controlling my tears coz Ija and Azly was in my dream as well.

When i awake, i texted my gfs about it.
Ija replied me saying, 'Not yet la.'

I breathed a sigh of relief.
It was audible, at least.

@ 11:14 AM

OMG

The migraine gets worst as the time passes by.

I dont like to wash my dirty linens in public.
My life is not perfect. It never was.
Because my life itself is filled my people.

And people are dysfunctional.
Figuring them out is a waste of time.

People i trust, my bestfriends, know that i go through a rough patch.
Heck, im going through it now.
I dont show it but my bestfriends, thay have seen me cry, wiped my tears, picked me up once again. Those who lent me their shoulders to cry on are those who knew whatever shit that im going through. And these are the people i TRUST most.

You know who you are.

Insyallah, when the time is riped, i will have a TELL ALL ENTRY.

But not ryte now.
Ryte now, i just need...

A long cold shower and two PANADOL Extra please.

@ 12:09 PM

Good morning!~

Heya.
Its a tuesday morning.
Currently i have mixed emotions running in me.

Anxiety and Hope.
But more to me being anxious of course.
Didnt help that im nursing a bad migraine since yesterday night/morning. 2am to be exact.

Well actually, yesterday morning, ive already felt the ache but i thought that after a night sleep, i'd wake up feeling way better.

But i was so wrong.

Sheesh!~

Anyways, before i start going on and on about this migraine, i'd rather post a shitload of pictures for your viewing.
Its been a while since i did that.

Saturday, 7th June 2008

Snap snap!
Ready?

I dolled myself up that Saturday to give my utmost support to Ween and her band, Quasimodo at Raffles City.

Quasimodo.
Having own photoshoot nampak?
*giggles*

Quasimodo is amazing.
Think they have their own myspace and all.
Will post up their link for you to check it out real soon yea.
p/s- lead singer is cute la.

darling ween in action.

After their performance, we took a group picture with the band.

spot me?
Anyways, Inda was already mia.
She and her cuzzie has headed of for a session of karaoke-ing which i politely decline.

Why?

Coz the initial plan after the performance was to head down to Simpang Bedok with bestie n hubby n mr a.
But the plan backfire and i was left with no plans on a saturday nite.

Sheen n nipz too!
Heh.

pweety us.
sheen n myself.

We waited for Nipz to wrrive and we just sat down on the comfy red chair and started our own catch up session.

WSS.

Ween had to go off somewhere and the three of us headed to PS to watch the battle of the year.
Breakdancing.

Note: Never wear heels and stand for at least an hour watching sweaty guys break dancing their way to Bangkok.

I mean it.
My feet were hurting soo much.
I really couldnt wait to sit down.

It was a huge relief when they suggested dinner and although i was full, i really couldnt say NO as i really wanna sit and since it was Manhatten Fish Market and i so wanna try the food there so yea i really should stop rambling.

Dinner for 3.

My dinner dates were...

Sheen

Nipz.

We ended the nite with a chilling session at Starbucks. Catching up on old times.

Have you watched Kung Fu Panda?
Its an awesome movie.
Seriously, my stomach ache just by laughing.
Honestly, i wouldnt mind watching it again. Really.

I watched it yesterday. After my norm tuition session on a monday.

Now thats a rare sight.
I dont usually wear a cap. But i did, yesterday.

Tuition during the holidays were a little laidback. I hate to pressure these kiddies so the kids and i spent about 50 minutes on subtraction, 25 minutes on playing lego and 10 minutes of cam whoring.

For real!~

These cheeky tuition kiddies of mine was the one who suggested taking pictures.

Sze Wai, Teacher Diyana and Darryl.

Shot taken by Sze Wai.

Verlyn, me n Darryl.
Sze Wai was the photographer again.

Notice how Darryl was in every shot?
He was the only boy so i guess a bit pamper-ish.

I met up with these 2 right after.

Thx for accompanying me have my brunch at 5pm! heh.

Because TRUE friendship doesnt end.

Signing off,

Shifu Star w Shifu Panda.

@ 10:50 AM