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What have i been up to..?

A thousand apologies for the lack of updates.

Ive been uber busy.

N im planning on going hiatus for a while.

Portfolios are driving me crazy!

So, im gona post a few pixs so that you guys wont miss me, k. hurhur.

Satisfied..? More pixs at my multiply. Click on the link on the right.

Ok, going to see the doc now.

I didnt tell you im not feeling well..??

Im feeling very pressurized right now.

Well, will blog again after the whole portfolio saga. And that could be in two weeks time or so. If you;re lucky.

Toodles.

@ 11:36 AM

Engagement.

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Happy Engagement dearest.

22.04.07

Am looking forward to the wedding at the end of the year. *smiles*

@ 10:52 AM

Shopping addict

I bought a few stuff yesterday.

Check it out.

The dress that i picked out at bugis.

Like what the girls said - It's so Dee!

The first tee that caught my eye.

This one is pretty cool too.

So is dis one..

And my ultimate favorite below!

Yup, no bf. No problem!

@ 7:23 AM

Confused...?

Figure out what you want and then get back to me ok.

If not, just leave me alone!

@ 4:34 AM

Cry me a river.

I cried at work today.

And all students saw.

Arrrgggghhhh.

Nope, it wasnt coz of any personal problems whatsoever.

See, i hurt my toe the other day so i plastered that toe. Then, just now, one boy stepped on my toe!

It hurts like hell.

Blood was oozing like a fountain.

I was in pain.

And i tried hard not to cry. But my students saw through me lor.

I couldnt describe the pain but when fareez was washing the blood off and bandaging my toe, i was squirming in pain. N i also have audiences at that. All my students gathered around us and watched the minor operation.

So now, my left toe is bandaged and i cant wear covered footwear.

Im even going home in slippers.
Not that im taking a bus or anything. I called the PUs to picked me up coz i wasnt in the state to walk. Haiz..

N im bringing hammy home..

Im sure hammy miss the comfort of my home. =)

Will blog again soon.

Toodles.

@ 8:58 AM

Super long entry..or not..?

Wokay.

It was an eventful day. Im practically referring to today, yesterday and the day before yesterday.

Remember how i blogged the other day about how april seems like a very hectic month.

Well, its still ongoing but a burden, no wait, a whole lot of burden has been taken off my shoulder.

Ive also got myself nearer to GOD and Alhamdullilah, things never looked rosier.

Im more calm and peaceful now.
I go with the flow.
I admit, it got nerve wrecking sumtimes but the whole thinking-of-god all the time made me feel at ease.

And it all started from the Friendster msg i received the day before yesterday and yes, i was stumped.

But i dun even wanna tok about it anymore.

My closest saw me cried, saw me wailed, saw me crying my hearts out.

They were shocked of coz.

Its been a while since i got my heart broken.
(and it seems to be happening every year!)

I aint proud of that and it can only mean one thing.

There's sumting wrong with me or the guy whom i tot was my prince charming is actually a TOAD.

So which is which?

So anyways back to my pathetic story, i tot id be able to take things in my stride. But i broke down. I broke down big time. Which the worst happened yesterday after i performed my Subuh prayers. As i lifted both my hands to seek forgiveness from God, tears flowed uncontrollably. It was madness!
I tried to stop after dat and continued getting ready for work but it just wouldnt stop!
Even when i left the house, reached the bus top, waited for the bus, sat in the bus, reached my stop, met eila, i was still crying.
N i didnt care how messy i was.

My makeup, my eyeliner, my mascara, my blusher was totally gone.

Eila can vouch to dat.

I had to compose myself from all the tersedu-sedan before reapplying my make up under the void deck and walked to work.

How pathetic!

But then, this morning, i woke up feeling better. Much better infact.

I was crying no more. I didnt think about it too much. I didnt think about it at all.

It's all predestined.

God has better things in store for me. But i aint rushing to get involved with anyone. They say, once bitten twice shy.

N god knows how many times ive got myself bitten.

Ok, no more love stories or now.

Just now, it was the 'audit' that my colleagues and i were both anticipating and dreading.
I swear there were mixed emotions.
My heart was beating like crazy since lunch time but ended when she left. Hah!

And what's the outcome..?

We got the orange-green or isit green-orange code?

What does that mean?

It means, its almost perfect!

Is that good or is that good? Lol.

I left work happy.

Reached home happy.
Now still am feeling happy. =)
Though am a bit tired.

Totally looking forward the weekend. Its jam packed with activities. Fri- is pay day. Just feel like letting loose. Saturday- no plans yet but i know i wanna njoy myself. Sunday? Wow. Its the engagement. Engagement of who?

My closest!

Name cannot be disclosed yet. But she's finally getting hitched. N im more of wedding planner ratha than bridesmaid. =p
But i am looking forward to the wedding. Gonna buy cloth at arab street to make a nice kebaya. Yayness to that.

Digressing.

Did you know that i actually wanna go hiatus. Really.
Since that incident, i just wanna be quiet for a while but then i changed my mind.
Fickle kan.

My apologies for the lack of pictures. Just no mood to edit the pictures to post them up. Hehe. So sorry.

I actually started this entry with dunno what to type but here i am blabbering away.

I guess i hafta stop now.

Till next time, toodles.

P/s- My precious sunshine is feeling under the weather. Get well soon love. TD loves you so so much! We'll play tolak-tolak the supermarket trolley soon k.
MUUUUUUUUAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKKSSSS.

@ 12:11 PM

Stumped.

No, im not blogging about the wonderful saturday i had yesterday with bestie & family.

No, im also not gonna talka bout the jb trip, wedding details, baby talk with The McQueens.

I'm also not gonna talk about how i cried like a whole lot because of the supa sad show dat i watched.
(Qabil Qushry Qabil Igaam)

Im just supa stumped of the msg i received from frensta.

Part of me just wanna laugh. But part of me wanna cry.

Yes, ive been made a cuckoo all this while and once again, im having deja vu.

God help me.

@ 7:22 AM

.i nid a break.

It took me a lil more than an hour to read blogs, chck and cleared my over a 100 unread mails, replied a few msges that i received from friendster and accepting friend's request frm Hi5.

This is the reason for not going online for 4 days.

Its been a very difficult month for me. Yes, its one of the trials and tribulation that i have to go through. And Alhamdullilah im taking it in my stride. Plus the ocaasional rantings and mengagu-ing nasib to my closest ones.

Im really sorry that you guys have to bear with me.

So, it was a difficult month. Especially this week and next week, and the week before. Ok, dee just stop.

Its just a very tough April!

Portfolios, audits & lesson plans are practically taking every inch of energy i have left in me.

My sleep was deprived. I made a new record yesterday. I reached my work place at 6.45 am.All that for that audit woman postponing the session.

Of course, there was mixed reactions among the staff. Most were upset about the whole cancelling of session while others were plain happy she cancelled. Hopefully she wont cancel next wednesday. I really wanna get it done and over with. Then i'll continue on the lesson plans which i have already handed in but other-people-not-happy with.

I dun even wanna talk about it.

Then after, i'll be uber busy with portfolios coz the PTC is in May. And i have like 42 students altogether.

Oh gosh. I hope i really can get through this.

Help me dear God.

@ 11:22 AM

Wait For You - Elliot Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know

So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do

I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me

(How could you forget about me)

You got me feeling crazy (crazy)

How can you walk away,

Everything stays the same

I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me

Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance

I can love you right

But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide

Are you that afriad of me?

But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside

Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you

If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do

I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Remember Elliot Yamin?

He was one of the contestant from American Idol season4 if im not mistaken.

I remember rooting for him coz i love his soulful voice.

And now his album is out.

Gosh, i soo need to buy that album of his.

Anyhow, i so can relate to his song- wait for you. And i keep listening to that song. Thus, ive changed my song at my blog.

Coz i want yall to listen to it too.

I promise its really nice.

And im also nice by posting up the lyric up.

Listen and sing along. =)

@ 9:09 AM

Conversation Out Loud

Baobei & Family along with a few other relatives came over last weekend.

And as usual i had to entertain them.

A funny conversation occured last weekend between me & Baobei.

Here's an excerpt.

Me: Baobei, do you know who dat is?
(pointing to siti nurhaliza on tv)

Baobei: I forgot her name.

Me: Siti Nurhaliza.

Baobei: Oh ya.

Me: So, who is pretty? Me or her?

Baobei: Both pretty.

Me: No, must pick one.
(I love putting kids on the spot. =p)

Baobei: U.

At dat point of time, i just laugh out loud.
That is what ive been doing at work.
Putting kids on the spot.
Its hilarious to see them squirm.

So then the conversation continues.

Me: Ur hair is very beautiful. If i cut my hair like urs, do u think it would be nice?

Baobei: (she turns and look at me) I turn ur hair like dis nice. But u wear tudung nicer.

GEDEBAP!!!

Ooops. =p

Anyways another conversation occured last night around midnight.

An unknown number appeared on my cell.

I answered.

It was him. All the way from Taiwan.

The conversation was barely 10 minutes coz its expensive but i appreciate the thought of him calling.
I really do.

And that's the reason why i woke up smiling today.

Hope i'll be smiling till the end of the day.

P/s- Will probably go to the hospital today to visit dearest embah.

@ 3:28 AM

Enough

I changed my mind of marrying a rich man after watching ENOUGH.

@ 11:12 AM

Mixed emotions.

My feelings today - Crappy.

Ftt results - FAILED.

Yup, that pretty much sums out the whole me.

I dunno how im feeling anymore.

I have a lot of stuff happening around me.

N on the outside, i seem to be fine but actually from the inside, there's a whole lot of me wanting to just scream and make everything go away.

N then after all that screaming, i just want to he held and hugged. Hugged real tight. And then maybe cry a little. But knowing me, i'll cry a lot.

And then that particular person will soothe me by saying all sweet nice things just to pacify me.

N can i have that particular person be that someone who left for taiwan and will be back soon..?

Can..? Pls, pretty pls..?

Past few days have been bumping into eila. And we have settled to meet everyday in the weekdays at our secret 'spot'. Lol.
Btw, thx for all the sweet goodies k darlg. =)

Dearest embah was hospitalised today. Get well soon k embah.

till next time..

.the potrait of me is tainted.

@ 7:48 PM

I'd blog during the weekend but i was sick. Actually still am sick. Health has been a bitch lately.

Some say its the weather.
Some say its my low immunity.
Some even say that its because i miss him.

Goodness gracious.

If its really true, den i wouldnt want to miss anyone.

But come to think of it, ever since he left, indeed, i have been sick.

Its sucha coincidence.

For the record, i skipped going to the doc coz i went like 2 times already and going again means burning a hole in my pocket just for medications.

No thanks!

This means i hafta endure all this coughing.
Sometimes, i even wish i could just lose my voice for a couple of days rather than cough this bad.

Thats how dreadful i felt!

Im supposed to be studying for my ftt but i got tired so i thought i'd blog a bit.

My FTT is tonight.

I'll definitely update on the next entry whether i pass or fail ok.

Im not shy to post it up even if i fail coz the learning part was a last minute thing.

Its just bring back to the time when i was studying for any test back in school.

Lol.

If you all know me, im a LAST MINUTE PERSON. =p

But insyallah, by GOD's will, i will pass. =)

Wish me luck.
Toodles.

@ 3:26 PM