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angst

YOU!!!!!!!

HAVENT YOU GAVE US ENOUGH TROUBLE..???

IM, scratch that, WE ARE ALL TIRED OF ENTERTAINING YOUR ERATIC ANTICS.

WHO DO YOU THINK WE ARE??

WHY MUST WE ALWAYS PICK UP THE PIECES AFTER YOU??

I think im already at the state where im just too angry and will burst out crying anytime soon.
Due to the hormones and yes, that particular person.

@ 8:16 PM

cut me open!

It's cyst.

The thing growing in me in cyst.

Doc said that it usually goes away naturally but sometimes it can cause infection. Initially i opt for naturally letting it go away but then, i felt a second growth at the other side.
That very moment, i decided that im going for the surgery whether i like it or not. In this case rather, whetha im afraid or not.

The good thing is that its a day surgery so i need not stay in the hospital. Thank God for that!

Ive heard of a few pple i know having cyst. I never thought i had it. Coz i know of someone once. She had cyst. And its ovarian cyst and she needs to remove it if not she will be unable to have a baby.

The first thing that came across my mind was, "Am i able to have a baby in the near future?"

Ok, ok, still a long way to go. But im so obsessed with having a baby right now. Im so engrossed with this novel called BabyVille. And im enjoying every pages as i read. My love for babies deepens and i want a baby oh so badly. But a reality check tells me that i have to make do with the babies that are not mine. Baby Qaayd. Baby Jacyln. And oh how could i ever forget? Baby Aryff is coming in 3months.

Babies aside, i did a lil research on what is cyst actually:
The human body occasionally creates structures and substances which serve no discernible purpose. Such is the case with a membrane-covered growth called a cyst. A cyst is generally formed on the surface of an organ or in the empty spaces between muscle and skin tissues. Generally speaking, most cysts are harmless (benign) and self-contained, filled with air, infected fluids or semi-solid substances such as sebum.

A cyst may or may not be cancerous. Thank god mine isnt a tumour or whatever it is.
A cyst on the ovary is usually not malignant, but it can continue to grow into a large mass and cause painful crowding of abdominal organs. Now, that is scary. All the more i should have it removed coz ever since i have that cyst, during my last menstrual cycle, i had the worst abdominal cramps ever.
I was even kept for an hour for in the hospital, remember?

So its finally decided. Doc, you can cut me open!

Next appointment date at SGH is 5th of June.
Anyone wanna accompany?

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Sri darling, thanks for leaving work early to accompany me.
Thanks also for the ferrero rocher.
You shouldnt have babe.

Sri & Inda accompanied me yesterday and we hang out together afterwards.
Thank god those two hit it off.
Well actually that wasnt the first time they met but still..

After the whole appointment thingy, we headed to Marina. I suggested that place coz the air conditioned in the mall was always freaking cold and the weather was uber HOT!
We had brunch cum dinner at the food court there before heading to STARBUCKS for raspberry fap with java chips session. =p

my dates.

I look so white in this picture but i lke the shape of my face here.
Ive always have a chubby face so this is one of those rare shots that made me look slimmer. *snorts*

"How do you define bimbo?" she asks me.
"YOU." I simply answered. =p

We gave sri a belated bdae surprise.

She was so surprised.
Didnt see that one coming ryte darl?

Make a wish and blow the candle...

Happy bdae once again love.
p/s u do know you look damn cute in that pix ryte. hehe.

Have a great weekend yall.

@ 10:44 PM

crunch time

The day is here.

I wonder what will be the outcome.

Thx Sri darling for volunteering to accompany me for the appointment since Mama had a meeting to attend.

And suddenly a few blast from the pasts have emerged, like whats up?

*shudders*

Update soon.

@ 12:40 PM

Always be my baby

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'll let you fly
'Cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die
No

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end
No

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
ooohhh (I know that) you'll be right back, baby
Oh baby, believe me
It's only a matter of time
Time

I did not watch American Idol. And i heard of Always be my baby from David Cook. Well, just a gist. I wonder whats the big hoo haa.
And after hearing his rendition, i fell in love with it.
Heck, i even cried.

Hormones changes makes me do funny things sometimes.

@ 7:24 PM

absurb moments

Just today, one of my colleague asked me, "Diyana, that's a nice ring. Are u engaged?"

I burst out laughing.
"No, i dont have a bf!" I answered in between choking back the laughter.

Which she then proceeded in saying that two of her students who are in my tuition class, says that i do have a bf.

Which i answered, "Well, they are kids. Anyone standing next to me is my bf!"

Somehow, she wasnt satisfied.

She asked again, "Well, you're t-shirt says, I Love My Bf"

"It's just a tee!" I answered.

So, moral of the story is, dont read in between the lines.

p/s- actually the tee caption is, 'I love my bf. (ex :p )

You are reading too much into it, i know.

@ 7:03 PM

straight from my heart

@ 6:32 PM

Updates

I havent been blogging properly ever since the whole cleaning up of centre n relief-ing ija's class. Work has been very hectic of late.
But thank god the school holidays are here.
Its time for r&r.
The whole of next week i'll be busy going back to school.

Its lesson planning and replacement of classes.
28-30th of May.

Except that i wont be going to work on the 29th.
I have an appoinment at SGH.
*shudders*

Ok, the scary thoughts aside, i'm gonna post some pictures of what ive been up to of late!

Last weekend, HSCB went karaoke-ing.
This time round, we chose to have an all girls day out!
We didnt take that much pictures though.
They are plenty of videos, which ive uploaded in my multiply. Which some of the embarrassing videos can only be viewed by my contacts. *bluek*

We did not take a group photo but to the newbies blogders, let me introduce you to HSCB.

HSCB was created last year. Not quite sure of the date but it was definitely during fasting month last year. HSCB stands for HOT STUFF CANNOT BLUFF.
HSCB consists of 3 secondary school friends who got even closer.
They are....

Ween aka COOL STUFF.
Her trademark is pandas.
This babe of mine is one talented girl.
An aspiring photograher, she is a rapper, a singer and a musician.
She is also the reasonable one out of us 3.
Yet at the same time, she is always the one who makes us laugh our heads off.

Inda aka CUTE STUFF.
Her trademark is butterflies.
She has the voice of an angel. She can easily breeze through Anugerah. All of us have been spurring her on but this bimbo of ours keep putting it on hold.
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, she is a certified blurry BIMBO! *giggles*

And dats me aka SWEET STUFF.
With the help from those babes, ive recently found my trademark icon. which is StARS.
Initially, i wanted to stick to hearts but i found myself attracted to starry things. =)
I dont know what im good at. But i love entertaining those babes of mine with my sense of style.
See, i dont stick to one concept. Im a chameleon who likes to change all the time.
There will be days when i just wanna be a rock star and there will also be days when i just wanna be so elegant and ladylike.
And in the above picture, i wore my dress that i bought for the very first time. Weeeeeeeee.

HSCB is not recruiting at the moment. If you wanna join us, you gotta commit. We meet up every week. Be it impromptu or otherwise. But HSCB welcomes anyone who wanna join us for any outings. We always believe that the more the merrier. =)

Digressing.

Tuesday, i went back to work to clean my class.
When i left for the relief, it was like this!

It was soo bare!
Thanks to the teachers who helped me with the classroom as i have to head down to another centre for relief.
We washed and carried all the furnitures out to dry under the hot sun!

When i headed for relief, it felt draggy coz i'd rather clean than teach. Heck, i was already in the holiday mood. Anyhoos, this handsome boy of mine made my day.

He is still as cute and cuddly as ever. He saw me for the very first time and he was so clingy and so manja. Hugging me and such.
He even said that he loved me.. Awwww. so sweet!

I brought ija's class out for still life drawing and i too was tempted to attempt still life drawing.

This was what i drew.

So what do you think?

Its not done yet coz i havnt add any colors to it. Cant wait to see the final outcome.

Thursday. Went tutoring as usual and Saddiq wanted to meet up since he won the bet. WHat bet? Well, i actually rooted for Chelsea to win against Man Utd and him otherwise but at last Man Utd did beat Chelsea. So it was supposed to be me treating him to Durian Ice Kachang but we ended up in Pasir Ris Park. And i drove him around. In the carpark!

I havnt drove in 4 years and i was soo rusty. But it was soo exciting driving round and around. Syiok. Hmm. Maybe i should continue my license. What do you think?

Friday. Met Inda for dinner. Did a lil shopping for my make up and toiletries. Headed to Borders to get some books and received an sms from Saddiq saying that he is bored.
He fetched us and off we went to Changi Village. Headed to Pasir Ris Park and sat by the beach.

The moon was exceptionally beautiful. I even counted some stars. It was kinda romantic. NOT! Lol.
Im with two of my good friends so it wasnt romantic at all. *giggles*

It was a weird Saturday. Went to woodlands with Nenek to visit Aunty Mar's family.
And i was estatic to see this baby boy. Sooo chubby. Like the Michelin Baby. Hehe.

Ah Boy! Hehe.
No, his name is Qaayd.

Me & Baby Qaayd.

Smelly Ayeeshah.

The Chungs.
Hawa Chung Sih Ying, Ayeeshah Chung Whai Ying and Chung Kai De, Qaayd.

It was a good Saturday.

And im tired of typing.
I think its one of those rare long entries.

Till i blog again.
Toodles.

@ 6:19 PM

May babies

18 may

24 may

Happy Birthday dolls!

@ 11:03 PM

migraine

I have a terrible terrible splitting migraine!

And its probably due to walking under the supa dupa hot sun.

I am sooo spoiled! I cant walk under the sun. =(

For now, i have to bear with the pain.

Gonna get some shut eye.

Gotta teach tomoro.

Please dont get me started. =(

@ 9:55 PM

Mr T

Firstly, there's no more Mr A.
It will be Mr T from now on. *giggles*

Scroll below for more info.

Ever since i saw him years ago... i fell truly, madly, deeply in love with him.

Years later, i still am.

His voice makes me tingle.

The way he croons makes me squeal like a little kid who gets candies.

The bonus part is that he looks oh so fine!

Yes, at 23, i still am going gaga over this hunky idol.

Mr T has his own blog now!!

Do check it out, if you even bother.
Click Here

You bet, im gonna be viewing his blog everyday!

Im sucha a crazy fan!

Ask HSCB and ija! =p

I even told inda that he is my marshmellow dipped in dark chocolate and sprinkled with colorful chocolate rice. Lol.
So go ahead.. talk about how silly i am.

As you do that, im gonna daydream about him. *bluek*

Im off to sleep now. Not even gonna bother blogging about how angry i am about the whole going back to teaching thing! It just makes me mad!

Oh well, good nite!

@ 9:45 PM

For all the right reasons.

Someone asked me this question, "You always have the set of friends featured on ur blog? Not many friends eh?"

I answered, "Quality is better than quantity."

Agreed?

Yes, i dont have that many friends. I hang out with the same set of people. I dont need too many that come and goes.

Im truly contented with those precious gems in my life.

I have reasons being friends with them.

And its all for the right reasons.

I believe that if your heart is pure, nothing will go wrong.

I believe that if you believe in GOD and that all mishaps and happiness comes from him, nothing will go wrong.

Your heart will be pure and friendship will be true.

Heck i even deleted my Tagged account. The place where i meet people. Or they say 'MAKE FRIENDS'.

Almost all the people there come and go. I can even count with one hand which are the true ones.

So, to all my friends whom i really treasure so much, FRIENDS FOREVER.

I sound so primary school-ish. =p

Well, that above was actually a draft from few days ago. Been wanting to post it out but somethings stops me.

Anyhoos, a few pictures and updates perhaps?

K1A.

K1B.

Happy Holidays to these kiddies of mine!
They are enjoying their extra 1 week break due to my centre closure.
While they are enjoying their 4o day break from school, their teachers have transformed into cleaners, busy scrubbing, cleaning, washing every inch and corner of the school.
Tiring you know!

Wont be seeing Vanessa again as she changed her school. :(

Well, straight after work that day, i met up with Nadya.
Its a must meet up every week session for the both of us.

This time, we had dinner at Cafe Cartel.
Her treat.
Thanks darl.

For now, let the pictures do the talking.

My stomach is growling as i look at that dory.
"Adrian! Im hungry!" :p

Pretty in blue, no?

My dinner date.

We talked a lot over dinner and even went shopping!

I bought a dress and i cant wait to wear it.

Darlz just make sure u dont wear it n i dont wear it the next time we meet ok. :p

And its all for the right reasons.

Dearest Ija, you got me worried when you were hospitalised yesterday. Get well soon hokay.
*hugs*

Till next time readers. Toodles.

@ 4:02 PM

Shattered dreams

I didn't get a chance to say I love you.
You were gone before we got that far.
All I know is now I really need you,
Yet when I look for you, you aren't there.

You said once that you never would forget me,
Yet how am I to know without you here?
Such emptiness! Like what I feel within me:
Neither flesh nor tears, just cold thin air.

Sometimes, alone, I feel your arms around me,
And all my need for you spills out in pain.
Jagged memories of you surround me.
I cannot think I won't see you again.

Im a loving individual, i hope.
My only challenge is to find my soulmate.

3 years 11 days has passed.

Still unable to...

*sigh*

Dear God, please give me the strength.
I really need it.

@ 9:10 PM

To My Mama

No lengthy sentences.

Just want you to know that I LOVE YOU.

Happy Mother's Day Mama.

@ 8:30 PM

Primary School meet up

This was supposed to be in a week ago.

But i was tied up with work work and more work.

Things have been slowing down for a bit so i could use the time to blog about the meet up at Marina a week ago.

I was with them for a few hours only as i have to rush over to Punggol to accompany my pregnant bestie at her crib. :p

Here's some pictures for viewing.

while waiting for marhaini.

she's the closest one to me.
and we have similar names at that.
DIYANA and LIYANA.

our meal at Pizza Hut.

She still wins at the most chubbiest cheek competition. :p

Group shot before i left.

We'll meet up again soon k babes.
N im soo sorry for bursting into tears.
I thought i'll be ok but guess i wasnt. :(

@ 8:48 PM

A letter of apology

Dear readers,

This blogger woild like to apologise for being missing in action.

This particular blogger with the url of http://deewicked.blogspot.com/ will not be blogging for a few days till her Parents Teachers Meeting is over.

She is very engrossed dealing and battling a million and one emotions.

Health has been a bitch.

Bad enough she that she had to spend over an hour under doctor's observation due to abdominal pain. Bad enough too she had to fork out 100+ of the hospital bills.

She is currently awaiting for doctor's appointment at SGH on the 29th with regards to the growth in her body.

She is busy finishing up one last observations for 48 children.

Which is not inclusive of the filing in.

It sounds simple but it actually is not.

She has never been so disappointed with that particular someone who has been in her life for almost 23 years.

It's ok to keep mum at times but she is in a stage of denial. She wants that someone to defend his/her case.

It only means one thing when one doesnt retaliate. DEFEAT.

(the scenario above will not be elaborated due to writer's privacy)

She is cheerful though coz she knows that in 4 months time, Baby Aryff will enter her life.

She is tired. Physically. EMotionally and mentally.

Physically, coz at this point of time, she is juggling work with tuition. From Monday till Thursday.

Almost 10 hours of teaching.

Emotionally, coz of the heartache she is facing.

Mentally, coz she is having mind block because of the portfolio.

Yes, its a lot of hard work. Hopefully she will pull through.

Current mood:

DOWN.

Entry typed by blogger's PA.

p/s- she will be back to blog abou fun stuff soon.

@ 11:26 PM