Thursday, November 19, 2009

Promise, i hope.



Oh hello, blogders, or the lack of them.



I am trying my best to update once a week now.



Why?



Well, i have to as im having my English exams in June next year and what better way to practice than blogging, right?



So now, i shall try to type in full sentences, proper grammar, tenses and punctuations and all.



Goodness, me!



It felt like O levels once again.



Ok, for now, i really do not know what to type.



Just to share with you guys, i am so in love with Beyonce's Broken Hearted Girl.



You’re everything I thought you never were


And nothing like I thought you could’ve been


But still you live inside of me


So tell me how is that?



You’re the only one I wish I could forget


The only one I’d love to not forgive


And though you break my heart, you’re the only one


And though there are times when I hate you


Cause I can’t erase


The times that you hurt me


And put tears on my face


And even now while I hate you


It pains me to say I know


I’ll be there at the end of the day



I don’t wanna be without you babe


I don’t want a broken heart


Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe


I don’t wanna play that part


I know that I love you


But let me just say


I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no



I don’t want a broken heart


And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No...


No No broken-hearted girl


I’m no broken-hearted girl



Something that I feel I need to say


But up to now I’ve always been afraid


That you would never come around


And still I want to put this out


You say you’ve got the most respect for me


But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me


And still you’re in my heart


But you’re the only one and yes



There are times when I hate you


But I don’t complain


Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away


Oh but now I don’t hate you I’m happy to say


That I will be there at the end of the day


I don’t wanna be without you babe


I don’t want a broken heart


Don’t wanna take breath without you babe


I don’t wanna play that part


I know that I love you


But let me just say


I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no



I don’t want a broken heart


And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…


No No broken-hearted girl


Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…


Oooo I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah


Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free


To spread my wings and fly away


Away With you yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh



I don’t wanna be without my baby


I don’t wanna a broken heart


Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby


I don’t wanna play that part I know that I love you


But let me just say


I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..


No..No I don’t want a broken heart


I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..




Sing along with me, if you want to. =)


@ 9:46 PM



Sunday, November 01, 2009

dilemma



I am in a dilemma.

Ok, here's the deal.

I have finished my 14 days of mc. All thanks to early this year where i claim my mc just for my routine checkup from CDC.

Thanks to Allah, im already discharged from CDC.

But now, you know, its the end of the year and people fall sick often. One minute its uber hot and the next, its the dull, gloomy weather.

So anyways, i went to the doctor this morning.

And was given another 2 days of medical leave, starting from tomorrow. =s

So, here's the dilemma.

I told my doctor that i can go to work, still. With the mask on.

But she gave me a straight NO.

She said that i am still low in a resistance and get this, she even said that I AM A HAZARD TO THE SOCIETY.

Thanks eh doc!~

Truth be told, how on earth am i supposed to teach in my condition.

I can barely hear myself. How on earth can the children hear me.

Do i still go to work or not..?

At this point of time, its the critical period and i only have one week left of rehearsing with the kids for the graduation concert. And every day counts and i dont wanna miss a single day.

But.. I dont think i can.

If anything were to happen at work, *touch wood*, im still gonna be blamed.
(like kids falling sick and me spreading the germs?
And at the same time, if i dont come, the management would think im skiving and what not.

Its a lose lose situation for me.

I need help.

Im at my wits end.

How, how, how..?

I just want my voice back, then, i'll still go to work.
If i go without the voice, how am i supposed to teach, right..?


@ 6:23 PM