<[[~ dyna's bloggie ~]]>

ugh

What's wrong with everything today?

I wanted to blog about yesterday but i cant seem to upload the pictures i took at blogger and my comp is lagging thus i cant go into my photobucket. Like What the f*$#!!

Everything is so going wrong. Everything.

It didnt help that yesterday's events occurred and that i made one huge and grave mistake. I wished i hadnt said it but i did. Gosh. Now, i wished the ground would swallow me up to save me from embarrasement.

N to top it all up, my throat hurts so very much. And im very sure its very red & sore and i wish it would just go away. But it wont. Its hurting soo soo bad. *sobs*

I wished yesterday never happened. I wished i could turned back time. I wished i would stop crying already.

@ 1:38 PM

sick

Ive finally met Monica Goh.

She gave me a P20 and Clannuse tablets and a Sedilit Ventamol syrup. The syrup is in pink, mind you. For children, it may look tempting. But for me, YUCK.

I hate medicines.

Did i mention that?

Just the thought of swallowing, yucky and bitter tablets and cough syrup send shivers down my spine.

On a totally different matter altogether, i have tutoring in wdls & im off to meet ija in tamp. Her turn to treat. Yayness.

I better go get ready.

@ 2:49 AM

seoul garden

It was pay day.
I headed to Tampines to meet ija & to get some stuff for the wedding.
Stuff that i bought was a brand new lipstick. Its pink btw. And it matches really well with my skin color.I also bought grey lenses. I wanted hazel brown actually but the degree doesnt matches with mine. So, i settled for grey. After shopping, it was dinner time. Dinner @ Seoul Garden. My treat.

Everything was good. Except for the sushi which was disappointing.

One hell of a hungry woman. Heh.

Dont disturb can? Im cooking.

She was a happy woman. Afterall, she was treated.

Notice the arrow. Is the wedding bells ringing ordy?

Im not ready for marriage. But i love Seoul Garden. Heh.

The ice kachang that we made. It looks yucky. But it tastes delicious. Blame ija for wanting to add the corns. I thought it looks and tastes better without.

Digressing.

Im sick.

I nid to see MonicaGoh.

I nid a hug.

But i cant help laughing at the post that was clearly written about yours truly.

p/s-wedding entry is just below. just scroll.

@ 6:19 AM

.wedding.

First & foremost, CONGRATULATION to Kakak & her Hubz. May you have a blissful wedding ahead.

Phew, finally, ive finished editted the pictures that i wanna upload here. Its pretty crappy actually coz all i did was brighten the picture and added a few borders here and there. Its very much meaningless but what the heck. So as promised, heres some pictures from the wedding.

When i saw kakak on saturday, the day of the solemnization, kakak asked me, "you want to see my room?"

"Nak!" was my reply and i followed kakak into her room. I was so amazed and agog from the transformation. Its so pretty. I could practically see myself squealing when i type that out. Heh. It looks like it just come out from a palace way back in those days where there were Hang Tuah and Hang Jebat.

Here's a sneak peek.

The hantarans. (if dat is what it is called, im so hopeless at all this things. neway, kudos to kakak. she made the gubahans all by herself)

The shot that i took. So classic. That photographer whom i taught looks cute would be super impressed if he saw dis. *bluek*

Yes, Ianz, i tot one of Kakak's cameraman is cute. The one in white. Heh.

N , obviously, its just me romancing the camera.

This is something that i really crave for at the moment but i have to steer myself from it coz im sick. *boo*

Im starting to drool. Are you? *winks*

Despite the chaos on Saturday afternoon, lil princess slept.

Adorable aint she?

Her god mother & her Mama pun cute tau. Scroll below.

Cute ryte? Haha. Self praise is no praise but international disgrace? Nah. Its just boosting the self esteem. Btw, i purposely close up that shot coz i wanna emphasize on our LOVELY, COLORFUL eyes. Heh.

My best fren for life.

When we finished clicking, two guys were like, "eh kita nyer turn ah"

So, dee layankan.

Yan & Yazid.

Before & after shot.

BEFORE.

AFTER.

Kakak was right. Make up can work wonders. And Kakak look realy lovely.

I couldnt resist taking a shot with the lovely bride.

The one big happy family.

Sunday.

Didnt take many pictures. Coz, i was busy. Busy doing wat, you ask?

Busy doing kendarat la. Penat tau. Sampai kena marah lagi dgn satu makcik coz never give her bunga telur. Padahal last2, bila salam mak pengantin baru dpt. Peh irritating. Geram jer! But kesian Yazid. Dgr2, he kena maki dgn satu makcik. Issh Ish. Dasyat sey makcik2 skarang.

So lets get back on track.

The orangey family & black is beauty bride & groom.

And after the kendarat-ing (no such word), i sat down and took pix with Boboy.Ianz younger bro.

Ok. that's all that i got to offer. Till then. Toodles.

@ 5:49 AM

tired.

I'm tired. Im sick but im PLEASED, very very PLEASED that Chelsea LOST.

Loser

Jose Morinhuo = Sore sore loser.

Eat your hearts out Chelsea fans!

p/s: I'll blog about my dinner @ seoul garden & the wedding soon. No freaking inspiration.

@ 1:36 AM

thurs.

Its a thursday! Weekend is impending. Wait a minute. Friday comes first. What class am i having on fri? Ugh. *disgusted look*
Its HER class. Im so dreading it.

Im trying to push HER out of my thoughts.

So...lets talk about something else.

For someone who is not working full time, i must say im pretty proud of myself as my cash is flowing in. What do i mean by that? Well, ive been so rajin of working as a relief teacher and to that, every month, the cash is flowing in. *winks*
Not only that, im so used to waking up at 6 whenever i had to relief, just this morning, i woke up at 6! Impressive. And i couldnt sleep till then. I was fully awake by then and here i am now, blogging.

Anyways, yesterday, my lecturer for the Teachers as Professional module asked the class whether we keep a reflective journal. She says that its a good way to reflect or pen your thoughts. My mind suddenly points to blogging. Here, is my humble abode, where i let off steam, share my happiness or drown in my sorrow. Though at times i pretty much slip out a lot of the intimate details of my private much and god knows who read my blog, will tink about it. Im havin my doubts but at the same time, a certain part of me dun mind that people Do wanna know about my so called SIMPLE LIFE. Besides, thoughts are meant to be private and confidential but if im able to speak my mind, den, why not? Why not blog? Ok, ok, for once there,i was nearly thinking of shutting down this blog, but then again, NO i wont. So to all my avid blogders, dont fret.

I spent nearly 9 hours wif yana yesterday. She was the one taking over ija's class while i took over shirley's. Wow. Very very amazed on how strict she was with the children. And, the best part is that, ija's class are well known for their boisterous and loud behavior. So, it was very weird to find the class being silent for quite sometime. Heh.

Oh, btw, i have date with ija today after tutoring. We are going to have a fair share of retail therapy and to staisfy our cravings at Seoul Garden. Yayness. Just the thought of it makes my stomach rumble. So hungry la. Oh and for da record, im treating her. She'll treat me back on Labour Day. Haha.

Ok, so now, im going to change my skin. Lets see whether it turns out all right. Till then, toodles.

@ 12:00 AM

way personal

The next coming weeks and month is going to be one hell of nightmare. Im sure of it. Apart from practicum supervision, countless assignments, presentations are piling on me. Not only that, the teacher is leaving soon and i could almost the one taking over her. Gosh~. Stress stress!
And HE is not gonna be there when i go through it as he is away. Far far away in.... Taiwan? Heck. Still not here. So its definite that i'll be supa stress!

Oh guess what, i was pissed at the lecturer yesterday. Literally. She's like one hell of a biatch!
Ooops.
Oh heck. Im ranting. I just hate her
la ok. She's like totally picking on me yesterday. Asking me to answer her questions. I think it was about 3 or was it 4 questions. Lucky me, i get to answer the questions. If not, malu lah ok! I was practically dissing her. Like all the time. That lecturer of mine was so different than the first time i saw her last year. She was so soft spoken, no jokes kind of person. But the 'NEW' her yesterday baffled me. She could project her voice now and it sounds louder. Not only that, she makes crappy and lame jokes and she thought that it was funny. NOT! SO, apart from ranting about that lecturer whom i practically loathe here, i was complaining to HIM as well. He was rather nice though. He told me to look at it in a positive way. I was like yea true but i just couldnt control my anger. Issh. ANd it was only yesterday that i told ija that i wont be skipping anymore classes. But her class, gosh. I dread going!

So since we are on the HIM subject, lets talk about HIM. Heh. He's in tekong right now. Leaving for TAiwan soon. Despite saying that he couldnt call me for the whole of this week, he called last night and despite his tiredness we chatted a lil bit and he listened to every detail of my complaint! How nice. Thanks darl.

Im earning extra income tomoro. Yayness. Cant wait to go shopping wif ija dis thurs. Kakak's wedding is impending. Double the yayness. Its been a while since i went to a wedding and the best part is the the bride is my bestie sister whom i regard as my sister as well. I seriously cant wait. Going to go for a manicure, get lenses and still figuring what to wear for the wedding. Dang.

@ 10:00 AM

yakk

The yakking has started. Yet again.

@ 8:00 AM

long.

It seems like forever hasnt it?
Here i am, all alone in the crib. Decided to blog and finally, yes, FINALLY, i have access to the computer. Cant help it. I have like, 5 others to share this computer with.

Previous entry very intriguing isnt it? But unfortunately, i wouldnt wanna talk about it anymore. Ive talked to my aunts about it and they advised me to not even think about it and shrug it off. That, i did. So, to whoever who wanna know, (esp to you-know-who-you-are), sorry k.

Long long weekend. Spent quality time with the family, the 'rents & my lil bro whom everyone thought is my bf when we go out together. Heh.
Eating out with them always a pleasure esp with the lil bro. He is sucha a crazy boy. Starting work soon ah, boy? Hehe.
Initially, on friday, i wanted to stay home. But Rz's words kept ringing in my mind. He called me a geek mind you, for staying in to be rooted infront of the computer. So, to prove him wrong, (and i never was a geek in the first place), i got ready and out i went with the fam, i.e, me, lil bro & the 'rents. We headed to Parkway Parade. Wanted to dine at Pizza Hut but unfortunately for us, the restaurant was no longer there. So, the alternative. Swensens.
I had Teriyaki chicken pasta. It was finger licking good. Next on the itinery list, we headed to Giant to do some frocery shopping. But lil bro had other ideas. He pulled me aside and said, 'Kak, jom ah gi arcade.' Which i did. So off we went to the arcade, spending about 8 buck of tokens. But our time was mostly spent at the wheels. *winks*

Couldnt spend Saturday at home, the whole family except dida who was on aft shift, went to cik azman's hse as they just moved in. After, we dropped Kak Noi off and the 4 of us headed to City Plaza. Dad had to pick up jerseys and Dan and i wanted to eat at Arnolds despite having eaten at Cik Azman's crib. Gosh, i felt so bloated on that day.

Lately, im so guilty of late night calls especially on friday and saturday. And lately im getting oh so closer to that paticular someone. Yesterday night was no different. HAd a chat wif him as per normal. His irritating-ness is extraordinary. He is irritating but at the same time, i can never get mad at him. Wonder why? Hmmm.
And im pretty shocked to hear that he is also one of the many people who would bother to read my humble and lowly bloggie.

As u all know, in this bloggie, i blog about my happiness, my sadness, my angriness and such. Im not embarrassed or shy to vent it out. Because, im human. So, expect more drama to come.

@ 3:46 AM

sad

Time start: 12.15pm.
Blog entry has to be put on hold since im talking to my aunt ryte this very moment. I have been staring at this empty screen from just now but have yet to type or vent out my frustrations. There is practically mixed emotions bundling up in me. I duno whether to cry or get mad. Unfortunately, rather than venting my frustrations i let the sad emotions overcome me. To that, i cried myself to sleep. It has been ages since i cried therefore, tears fell like water rushing out like an open dam. No. Scratch that. The tears will flow like how you turn on a tap. It flows whenever i think about the incident last night. Den why think about that incident?
How can i not think? This thing is between two of the most important people who has made a greatest impact of me. It hurts just to see it happens. And im always known as the girl who listens to the parents and all but i hate it when she says things like dat. I hate it! I get so frustrated that i cry. You could call it angry tears. But at the same time, my heart crumples just like a piece of paper. I never felt so vulnerable. Im an adult. Why must i be told on who to be friends with? That is too demanding. Am i still a kid in their eyes? Im nearly 21. An adult? how can they say that? Its too much. Gosh. Im still crying.
I have always believed in second chances. Its not too much to ask for isnt it. Besides, im just friends with him. We never said anything about getting together nor did he say dat he wanna propose or sumting like dat. How can she say dat?!
I need my marina promenade. Its been ages since ive been there. Now is the time to retreat.

KEITH URBAN

Tonight I Wanna Cry(Monty Powell / Keith Urban)

Alone in this house again tonightI got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine

There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me

The way that it was and could have been surrounds meI'll never get over you walkin' away

Chorus:I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better

But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

This song suits me. Though im not drunk and i never had any bottle of wine. I just wanna cry.

Time end: 12.46pm

@ 3:47 AM

.pinky.

Ok, today is definitely keeping in touch with the sec sch peeps say!

Well, dats the day that i invented myself coz today, i chatted wif lotsa people from my sec sch days. Farhan & Anip. Well, even though its just two, but what the heck. Im still gona say that today is my get in touch with my sec sch peeps day!

Well, these 2 guys is definitely not going to the gathering on the 28. One going thailand and the other going taiwan. Duty calls. *sigh* That means, if Anip is going, den 'He' is going as well. Will surely miss him. A lot.

Farhan sounds so very different on the fon. Ive never talked to him on the fon b4 actually. That was my first time. You see, i dont really get along well with him. He was one hell of a difficult person to work him back in those days. But, since we all dah besar panjang la kan, we finally got along! Hee. Chatted with him about is life, my life, his army life etc.

Anip. I was just msging him. He was replying me to my msg yesterday about the gathering. And one thing led to another. He made me cry with his msg, considering that we were discussing a particular topic. This is what he sent me.

"Yah,its the past. Feelings come and go but some of em will always be der..U tk care gurlfwen"

Who would have thought? That a simple msg like that touched me and i wept. Well, you know the wuss that i am. But Anip, pls dun do what you asked me just now k.

Yesterday night was way peculiar. I dont know whether he is pretending to know or just didnt know or wanting to hear it from my own mouth. But whatever it is, im gonna let nature take its course. I aint gonna rush into things again.

No idea what im talking about? Well, you're just not meant to know. *blueek*

@ 7:45 AM

elated.

Hey all. Sorry for being hiatus for days. Things have been hectic for me. Assignments and presentations all piling on me. Not only that. Im feeling the heat from my practicum which is impending. Stress nyer!

At this very moment, im happily munching on my filet-o-fish burger for breakfast. Wats intriguing is that i ordered a sausage muffin wif egg burger but i got a filet. Like wat the hell. Stupid Kovan McDonald restaurant. They dun even give us chilli sauce, let alone napkin. Stupid dum2. *blueek*

On a totally different matter, I was really really happy yesterday. Why? Because, i did really really well for my presentation yesterday! Well, not really, really really well. I did just fine. My group members gave me the thumbs up! Yippie.
Wats ironic is that i wasnt feeling the nerves when i was presentating. I was on a roll! Haha. Words can never describe how happy i was yesterday. Eh, actually, words CAN describe my happiness.

Lets see...

I was really happy that i could jump up for joy!
I was so happy that i was smiling still even after the presentation and wen i was making my way home myself.
I was happy despite the folks not picking me up after school.
I didnt care that my heel got stuck in some kind of hole and i have to pry it out. (Just like J-Lo in the Wedding planner)
I didnt care that at that point of time Zai was next to me and she was laughing. I was embarrassed but i didnt care. I was happy!
I was so happy that i decided to give my mushy and sappy sad songs at my mp3 a miss.
I was busy SWAYing to Michael Buble, PUMPING IT with the Black Eyed Peas and swinging to Hips DOnt lie by Shakira.
(which all happens to be the top three songs that has been reoccuring in my head)
I was happy even though i had to wait till midnite for my supper.
I was happy even though Dwi died in the episode of DIA. Heh.

Yup. That's how happy i was. I went to bed last night with a big and humongus smile on my face. =)
Its too bad that i dun have a bf to share my joy with. But whatever. Im still happy.

@ 2:36 PM

sigh

Feeling abit restless after the long talk i had on the fon wif one of my aunt. N, a wuss, that i am, i cried. One of my aunt has breast cancer. The disease that many women feared. At one point, i felt that her voice like already getting softer, like she was stifling tears, i felt dread. I was never known to be very good at trying to compose someone. Let alone talking about breast cancer. She even asked me, "What should i do, Na?"
I dont even know how to answer that question. I braced myself and said, "Redha je la Cik. Its fate. Ni semua dugaan dari Allah."

My conversation wif that aunt of mine was very long. We talked from serious things, to family matters, relationships and finally to Ari Wibowo, before she started complaining that her breasts hurt and that she wanted to take a rest before going for her biopsy. The serious things were definitely about her undergoing his trial and tribulations from God Almighty. Me & that aunt of mine is similar in a way. We both like to keep in touch with the rest of the extended family. We felt that its silly to pull yourself away from the rest of the siblings. I mean, what are families for? Having to stay together, bonded as a family. Going for family gatherings, staying connected no matter the distance. Never break that bond. Never bitch or diss your own family. I mean, why ruin things right? Besides, at the end of the day, blood is thicker than water. I must admit, my family, (im talking abt family as in my aunts, my uncles, my cousins etc), dont really share the bond that we used to share ages ago. We are all so pre occupied with our own lives that we seem to be putting aside family gatherings and such. That is not good. I dont think some even know that one of my aunt has breast cancer. It shouldnt be this way. they are siblings after all.
I dont wanna go in depths in this. It might take forever and i probably have to write a book about it. But im praying that my aunt will be healthy after this obstacle.

He's getting married to an ustazah!
Wow. In greater shock. After digesting that thought, i finally concluded that its good that way. The thing is that both my aunt and mama was disappointed that the woman he is marrying is not me. Oh well, what can i say? Jodoh pertemuan di tangan tuhan. Besides, im not even 21 for goodness sake. Im still young.
I just hoped that he stop msging me. He keeps msging me everyday la ok. I didnt entertain him la but still... haiyo.

On a different matter altogether, im heading off to woodlands to meet my past addiction.
Haha.
Just kidding. That guy is in camp la ok. Im going over to my aunt's crib to do some software research. N i shld be getting ready. So till, then, toodles.

@ 3:27 AM

.skinn.

Brand new skin. Very simple. Not too extravagant. And its so me! M using one of my old picture. Wanted to use my newest pix. The one yg step nak jadi model tu. Tapi, after much consideration, nah. Cannot make it la. Heh.

Health's a bitch lately. The headache comes and go. Comes when i reached home. Goes when im out. Weird? Totally. Maybe, i spent too much time at home.

Relief-ed ija's K2 class just now. Dragged myself out of bed, showered and got ready.
Ija's class so very the noisy sey. Cannot make it. But i didnt stress myself that much just now. For what sey? Dah lah pening, takkan nak stress2 lagi kan?
The k1 class that i reliefed a week ago all was so happy and chirpy to see me. The impact i have on them. Haha. Yea right. N im especially happy coz i saw my precious farrah. We both share a different kind of 'love'.
*winks*
We would tickle and poke our tongues out at each other etc. Another girl, Jaxine, hugged me when she saw me. I never fail to ask one of Ija's student, Riyadh, to hug me everytime i saw him. He is just super adorable. But im not going to relief tomoro again. Haf to finish up my assignmnt. Tons of assignmnt are piling up on me. That could also be the cause of my headache.

I have been puking of late. It comes hand in hand with the headache. Im not bullimic or anything. I never was. I dont know whats wrong wif me. *sigh*

Off to watch 'Gaduh2 syg'
Toodles.

@ 12:31 PM

ari wibowo

It took me forever and forever to upload the many pixs. Gosh. Pardon my language. Blogging, uploading pictures, chatting wif bestie while watching Anak Mami Kembali. Kekek la the show. I watched it before at Feza's crib and i love it! Now, the folks bought the vcd. So, im watching it again.

Im braving the killer headache just like i brave the hot weather yesterday to blog. I mean, i cant blog tomoro since im gona be relief-ing yet again.

So anyways, im pretty sure u guys are wondering what did i do to brave the hot weather yesterday. Well, all for Ari Wibowo. You know, the gorgeous and HOT male hunk lead of the hit show 'Dia'. *drools*

He is so like my dream guy. Heh.

So, i met up wif this missy to head to dhby gt.

Pictures for eye sore.

N i mean, real eye sore.

Bebuih gambar i pat dlm ni! Haha.

Feza & me.

The elder sis didnt turn up. So, i met up wif the younger sis. Ija's beautiful 18 year old sis, Effa.

Beautiful Effa n me.

Pretty aint she.

Knape eh dia boleh tinggi dari i? Oh ya. She was wearing heels. Hehe.

And yet again.

The gorgeous three.

Mcm betul je.

N again.

First of all, many many thanks to effa for taking the many pictures of the stars. She was one of the crew mah. So, let her take. Me & Feza just enjoyed the show.

Guess who was there?

Yup. Hyrul & Azmir. Very very good looking guys.

And the star of the show!

The hunky Ari Wibowo.

He is so my dream guy. Yea ryte. But seriously. Man, he is like super hot. U noe, the crowd (mainly indons, makcik2 and the teenagers) were screaming out to him that they love him. And clever Ari replied, "If you say that you love me, tell me y u love me. What is the definition of love?" The 30 000 crowd (they estimated, btul ke?), giggled.

Me, Feza & Tasya (yes, tasya and cik gaya were there too), started singing a song.

'L is for the way you look at me.'

'O is ...................................'

'V is ver very extraordinary'

'E is.......................'

Ok, if you must know. I forgot the lyrics of that song. Always keep forgetting the O and E part. Can anyone enlighten me?

Hmmm. Overall, i must say that the event wasnt that well planned. Kesian Ari kena serbu dgn peminat. And u noe wat. I think Ari is hotter than Michael Jackson.Not that Michael Jackson is hot anyway. He's more like a freak. But anyways, there were even people who fainted. Yes, fainted when they saw Ari. Anyways, the event pple cld do better next time. Never underestimate Ari's fanbase in singapore. And because of Ari, i got a killer headache for standing under the sun for too long. Up until now. The pain just wouldnt go away. It was so bad ok. Yesterday night, fell asleep at 11 ish. Woke up at 2 in the morning. Reluctantly swallowed two panadols and drifted off to sleep yet again. An hour later woke up and couldnt get to sleep till 7 just now. Haiz. That five hours when i was in bed, was listening to music, bearing with the pain. *sigh* Im trying very very hard to surpress the pain. HAve to. Considering that i have school later on. *double the sigh*

Ok, so after the whole event, me, tasya, feza and cik gaya headed to hougang mall to have our breakfast and lunch at Magic Wok. Chatted almost about everything. But mostly, its about finding the right bf and not to rush into things. And what cik gaya said is true. Look for Husni instead of Bard. Considering that there are many Bards right here in singapore. Heh.

Hmm. what else to type eh. Below are more pix. confirm sakit mata nyer kalau tgk. Its just more pictures of me. Hehe.

The model tak menjadi.

The bitchy look

Look at the camera, dida!

Talking to my bf? Sudahlah. Hidup single lagi best!

Enough of all this. Will blog some other time. Penat la. I wanna take a nap b4 going school. Till then. Adios. Amigos.

@ 6:47 AM