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In the midst of fasting

In the midst of the fasting month....

Im sick..(yet again. Sumting wrong with this throat of mine. Been goin to the doc but nothing seems to work. A lil scared & worried that this could be a throat infection or sumting to do with the tonsils.

In the midst of the fasting month...

Ive been so busy.
Especially this week. Its sucha a hectic week. Been told that im a sombong for ignoring some. Im so sorry. Just been too busy. Too many things to do with too little time. Like i have an audit tomorow. Gosh~. And just now was the class photo taking. Wore pink for the ocasion. So hirok pikok~ Especially the part where i have to take apicture of myself. The posing was so kerepek. (my term for merepek) Coz i had to stand straight and tilt my head to the side. Bleargh. But i love taking pictures. You guys should know.

In the midst of the fasting month...

We got a very new SINGAPORE IDOL... woohoo. And guess what? He got like 70% of the votes. Can you believe that..? Woohoo. Im soo happy. Me & Dida were practically shouting when the results were announced. Im estatic. And y shouldnt i be..? I spent over $50 voting for him for the last few weeks. Die hard fan..?
You bet! But i wouldnt go to the extreme.

I still prefer my EX BF- Taufik Batisah. Hahahhahahaha.. *gags*

@ 8:13 AM

Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah!

Ramadhan is here once again for us to stop and restrain ourselves from all the evil that we have been doing knowingly and unknowingly.

Insyallah, we will achieve all the goodness that Allah has bestowed on us in this hole month.

We welcome Ramadhan with open heart and arms.

Happy fasting to all Muslims.

@ 1:18 AM

bad thursday.

Im shocked by the news. Absolutely baffled. Who would have thought.....???

Oh gosh.

I just pray that things would go right. I really do.

Anyways, the reason y im blogging is to let out my rants. As per normal. I rate yesterday, Thursday 21st September 2006 the worst days of my life. Well, one of the worst actually. Oh god.

I dont even know where to start.

First i was real pissed with the way a parent shouted at my colleague, picking up a fight. Then my ignorance paid his price. *sigh* I dont even know how to describe. But i was extra careful today at work. Not even gonna elaborate. I leave it all up to your imagination. The thing is, i hugged him real tight, nearly cried but he just kept on smiling.

I reached home at 11.15pm. Elder sis reached the abode 15 minutes before midnight. Another frightening incident occured that scared me out of my wits. Police were called. Investigation has started. We were clueless but wary. And where was lil bro when all dis happened? He was sound asleep. Oblivious to the surroundings. I really pray that my family is not involved. Really, i do.
I was wary when i reached home today. My eyes were darting from side to side, checking out the surroundings, looking out for suspicious characters. There was none. Only noisy, boisterous kids playing soccer under the void deck. Phew.

It was really a terrible day. But im really thankful to have people looking out for me. You know who you are.
*grateful smile*

Neways, would love to blog even more but then again, nah...

@ 10:20 AM

random

So many things to do..
Too little time.
*sigh*
Very irritating you know.
I haf pictures to upload and entries to blog. But, do i haf the time..?
No, i dont.
Im telling you. Work has been keeping me very very busy. Work too has been keeping my mind off my troubled love life. Or the lack of it.
Ive yet to send out the pictures via email to ween n inda. Ive also yet to upload those pictures to my fotopages so they can just 'curik' from there. But then, this stoopid pc so lagging and im soo shacked after work.
Im trying my very best. Right now, im being kept busy with 39 portfolios to do. Oh dear!
That's my life now, ladies and gentlemen. Being revolves around work.
Btw, im soo looking forward to my payday. I wanna go shopping. Yippie. *big smile*
That's the only thing keeping my spirits up this week. Oh and dat particular person as well. *winks*

Yes ija, he has the biggest impact in me.
You know, i know hor. Heh.

Anyways, im soo into this song at the moment.
Stacie Orrico- I'm not missing you.

Oh, Oh

I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through

When it comes to relationships

Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen

When I told myself that was it

Now here I go, hurt again

Cause of my curiosity

Now that it's over

What else could it be, he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS(But) I'm not missing youI'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going becauseI got life to doI know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

But this time it's differentI don't even feel the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause

I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me

Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh

Will my true love ever be?

Why would I go on a search again

When I know what the end will be

What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settleWhy didn't I keep it?

Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can't be with you

Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me

I can't keep going through life

Unaware of what I missed

And the person I could be

Love's good when it's right

And when it's left in your memory

All the times I let you down

I guess love will be nice for someone else's life(But)

I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going becauseI got life to do

I know I'm usually hanging onI used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)

Oh different, oh feel the distance

I'm not missingI'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)You might have had me open

But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)I know I'm usually hanging onI used to hate to see you gone

Oh different, feel the distanceI'm not missing

I'm not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)

I'm not missing you

I'm so over you

It ain't even a problem

p/s- That song not exactly dedicated to anyone.. no puns intended.

Neways, if u miss me, here's one of those self centered pictures that i will post up for eye candy viewing.

Right. Go puke. =p

@ 11:46 AM

sick again..?

Its 11.21am on a Wednesday morning and here i am at home. Im sick. Again. Im just going through the motion. It seems like everyone is sick. This is probably what everyone calls, 'Musim sakit..'

See, during lunch yesterday, i didnt have any appetite so i just had cheese stick for lunch (n dats my only meal for the day, btw). Ija asked y im not eating.

"No appetite" was my reply.

"You're going to be sick." that's her reply.

Lo and behold, during my afternoon class yesterday, my eyes started to water (still m watery now), and i started sneezing. Imagine, im reading a story to the class when my tears started flowing.

"Teacher Diyana, why are you crying..?"

"Im not crying. Something went into my eye and its painful." was my reply.

"Wear spectacles la teacher.." one girl said to me.

So smart my students. They actually wanted me to take out my lenses and put on my glasses. But i didnt bring them yesterday and i had to go back home, watery eyes and all. Everyone was looking at me. At the bus stop. In the bus. They are probably wondering what the hell is wrong with the girl who seems to be sobbing into the tissue and wiping the tear that keeps flowing down my face. Oh well, what do i care..?

You noe what i hate being sick now that im single..?

I hate it now that i dont have a bf to complain to. No one to feel sorry for me and be there for me. I hate it soo much. So at the end of the day, Bestie was the only person i turned to. She heard me whine. She heard me complain. Sorry darlg. You're the one i had to turned to. =)

Speaking of which, Bestie asked if i still loved Amin yesterday?

Honestly speaking, i havent thought of him in the longest time. Maybe i dont love him anymore. Maybe. I dont know. I dont even know what i want right now. Maybe i want to be in a relationship. But i dont want to be in relationship where they are like my rebound relationship kind of thing. I want to be in a relationship where i really love that person and he loves me too and live happily ever after. Which i figure will not be happening anytime soon.

Maybe there is someone out there who loves me and wanna be with me but im just plain delusional. *sigh*

Did i mention that i hate my love life..?

I really do.

@ 2:36 PM

in sickness.

Im sick. I hate being sick. I feel horrible. I feel terrible. I feel miserable. I feel like dying. Ok, i was just kidding with the last one. But yea, i hate it when im sick. I went to see the family doctor with dida earlier. Yup, she's sick also. Even worse off than me. Her body was burning hot when i reached home yesterday. So, we slept with the air-con on. I was practically freezing. But than again, it was very comfortable and so cozy with the comforter over my body and me hugging my bolster tight. I didnt wanna get up but dad called and i had to go down and bring his phone to him. Ugh.
Anyways, Doc said that my sore throat is worst than Dida (yes, she has the sore throat too).

"Precisely." I answered

"Are you sure it's only been a couple of days?" he asked.

"Yea." I nodded while stealing a glance at dida.

So, i told a lie. A white lie. Its been a week actually. I just dont want to hear him nagging on why i didnt go see him earlier. Haha. I remember that i started coughing on the last day of school last week. Then on saturday, i went karaoke-ing. Which also causes my throat to be even more swollen. Two days ago, i munched 4 ferrero rocher while watching sg idol. Like duh! And yesterday, i met up with inda and i drank ice tea. How to get well? I dont even know how to take care of myself. So now, i have to swallow like 3 pills and drink 10 ml of cough syrup every 8 hours. *sigh* I hope i get well before school re opens.

Oh gosh. The medication has taken its effect. My head is spinning. My eyes feels heavy.

"Mind over matter, dee. Mind over matter."

I wanna blog about the sec school gathering and get it done and over with. So, here goes.

2nd September 2006.
Had Teacher's Day Lunch at Siam Kitchen. Food wasnt that nice. Or maybe its just me and my bad throat. But the company was great. We had a barrel of laughs.

Next itinerary for me was the anticipated gathering with my secondary school peeps. As per normal, most were late. Like wats new. Janji kul 2.30. The latest the guys reached was 4.30.
Me & the girls were bored to tears while waiting for them. Anyways, the bowling outing was cancelled as me & my girls felt that bowling is sumting we all have done before and karaoke was soo much better! And lo and behold, it really was. Everyone had a lot of fun singing those old songs. And the anthem on that day was, "Miss you like crazy" by THE MOFFATTS. Everyone was singing to it.
And with Wan Black around, it was even better. He is officialy the joker among us. He lights up the atmosphere with his funny antics and jokes. He's cute too, with dimple and all. Too bad he is taken. Haha. No, i did not mean that. =p
Songs sang was from pop to r&b to hip hop to reggae to nasyid and to dangdut. Cute la plak when ex couple Wan & Wati sang Memori Daun Pisang. They even gelek la ok. It was uber fun, i tell you.
3 hours wasnt enough. But we had no choice. Most went their separate ways after karaoke-ing but me, Mac, Abid & Taib headed to ecp for dinner and to meet up with Sheik. More came actually. Fendi, Faiz, Anip, Zul and lo and behold once again, i was the only girl.
I got pampered and bullied all at the same time. Thanks ah korang.

Neways shout out to Mac - Thanks for taking care of me dat day. I hope your wish was granted in getting together with the rest before you enter NS.

To Fendi- Thx for the ride home, buddy. Appreciate it.

To Inda- Aku nak gambar girl. Chuber ekh expedite. =p

To the rest of the sec sch peeps: We'll meet again soon aite. Luv u guys.

(Not even gonna mention to dos who said they are turning up but batang hidung dorang pun aku tak nmpk!)

Eye candy pictures below.

Teacher Diyana & Teacher Shaima

Teacher Khadijah & Teacher Sharon

Another teacher. My close gal pal, inda.

Are u looking at me the way she is..?

Button & panda

*winks*

me & my gerls.

luv dem lots.

inda & ween

the guys..

dah lah 2 hours late. Hmmph.

Slumber jek dorang.

*blueek*

Justin TIMBERLAKE Future X-Girlfriend.

Hehe.

Lurve dis pic.

Nip & Usop were singing to Rabbani's- Pergi Takkan Kembali.

(while ween looks on...)

dee, wati & mac so engrossed..

lucky him. Haha.

Memori Daun Pisang..

"I'll make love to you..."

close together since sec sch..

we're still close till now..

Ex bf who turned up- 1

Nip: I turn to him. =)

Ex bf who turned up- 2

Usop: His gf hates me. =p

Ex bf..

Eh wait, TAIB was never my bf in the first place.

My bad. =p

what on earth are the guys doing..?

Last 8 standing.

4 girls left.

idah & dee.

i had a crush on him once in sec sch.

haha.

AT ECP.

nip, mac & zul (ex bf who turned up 3)

sheik & taib.

yours truly...

Good luck in NS, pal.

Okay. Im gona log off. N im gona sleep.

Looks like i wont be doing the gross motor skills lesson plan.

Haiyo.

Till next time.

Good nite.

@ 4:18 AM

How are you feeling?

How are you feeling?

Happy?
Sad?

Feeling blue?
Feeling bad?

Can a gentle, smiling friend try to cheer you up again?

When you have to wait because someone is late, are you bored? Jumpy? Worried? Grumpy?
Excited as the minute pass?
Now you're friend is here at last!

How are you when you're friends drop by?

With someone new.... a little shy?

Don't belong?

Not for long!

Feel secure?

Or not so sure?

Amused?
Confused?
Frustrated?
Surprised?
Try these feelings on for size.

How are you feeling?

When you're attacked, do you react?

How do you feel when sumone is mean?
Timid? Bold?
Or in between?

When you're angry, do you pout? Whine? Cry? Scream? Shout?

Feeling sorry and ashamed?
Or embarrassed to be blamed?

Jealous?

Disappointed too? when you're hurt, who comforts you?

So many smiles!
Can you decide who's feeling safe?
Who's feeling pride?

Wired? Tired? Need a kiss?
Do you know anyone like this?

Do you let your feelings show?
Who do you love? How do they know?

When how you feel is understood, you have a friend and that feels good.

So.. how am i feeling..?

Hmmm.. a lil bit of all in one...

@ 7:34 AM

Teachers Day

It wasnt my birthday. Neither was it my going away prezzies or what not..
It was just a simple celebration..
It was.. TEACHER'S DAY...!! (although i know it was a give-way in my title post)

*winks*

Happy Teachers Day to all teachers, caregivers, tutors, all who teach... *huge grin*

Teacher's Day. A day where teachers are appreciated for their hardwork, dedication and passion in nurturing children. Be it for the young or old. It is also a day where Teachers get their holiday and a break from teaching.

Im on my Teacher's Day break today. Im gonna spend the day home today considering that i'll be spending one whole day out tomoro. Yayness for dat! So anyways, yesterday was the last day of school. I mean, term break. I have one whole week of holidays. But also have to go back la to work to set up learning corners and such. My classroom is going to be revamped. Insyallah.
Anyways, yesterday, i brought a huge bag of prezzies home. My students were so cute.. They showered me with prezzies, hugs and kisses (from riyadh dat is). So when i reached home, i couldnt wait to open up my prezzies.

Yup. I got mugs, flowers, picture frame, pen holder, cards, stuff toy, chocolates (yummy) and more.

I wasnt expecting these much prezzies anyway since i just started taking over them 3 weeks ago. But then again, ive been relief-ing their class since early this year so i guess im pretty much appreciated. Though, all i asked for was just simple wishes and hugs and for them to be good boys and good girls who will listen to me during class. Heh.

Anyways, im losing one of my girl who will be changing school. And all the way in Woodlands. *sobs*

Yesterday was her last day in school. I guess i wouldnt see her anymore. So sad la ok. (She's the one on your right.)

Farrah Lim Su Qi. One Chinese Muslim girl who is very bright. Very billingual in all three languages. English, chinese and malay. Soo cute, i tell you. Im soo gonna miss her kepo-ness in always wanting to help me when im doing something, her clingy-ness, her always wanting to hold my hands when walking to the dining room, her always following me around even when im going to the toilet (haha), her always showing me her new toys, her saying.."You sey-bok and You Se-Le-nge" and her saying that she loves me. *sigh*

She gave me a huge hug before she left and i could almost feel myself tearing. Read. ALMOST. She even said that she's going to miss me when i asked her if she will.. *sigh*

Ok, im practically sighing in every paragraph. Im gonna miss her. Im sure of it. She will always be in my heart. =)

Anyways...Joakim is finally OUT of Singapore Idol. The day that i have been anticipating has arrives. I always either switch to the other channel when he is singing or get myself busy so as not to listen to his voice. Im not being mean or anything. But he just cant sing. But, he is still very young. He can go far if he works on his voice. All the best to him. Anyways.. my vote will always be for Hady Mirza. Oh gosh, Im pretty much smitten by him.. Especially his voice and his cute adorable face. *giggles* My phone bill will be increasing because of him. I really hope he'll do well in this competition and will win, eventually.

Before i end, i got a couple of shout outs for some of my closest.

To Eila, Efny, Nadya, Yaya and Sri.. i have invites for putri nur dini 1st bdae party next saturday. I will be passing Eila, Efny, Yaya and Nadya's invites to Ratna by Monday (hopefully) so that he can pass it to you. Whereas to sri, i guess u hafta meet up wit me darling.. You jgn asik nak keje aje ok.. Chuber ekh! Hehe.

To my Sec Sch peeps, Dun forget our date tomoro. Im so looking forward for it. Susah jadi planner.. *rolls my eyes*

@ 5:08 AM