Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Desperado



Last update: 11th October 2006.
Today's date: 30th October 2006.

Its been a while hasnt it. I dont intend to blog any soon. But ive been reading this book. Its about the diary between a mother and her daughter. How they see things differently. Writing in their diary kind of thing.

Well, well, well. Not only have i abandoned this bloggie of mine, i have also neglected my diary. The diary that i spilled my guts, poured my sorrows and bitch about pple and they dont even know! Not that im proud that im bitching la. But its just dat, smtimes, bitching about others and they reading about it, like tak baik kan. I rather keep it to myself. And there's pple who would misunderstand and think im typing about them and stuff. I dont want no drama.

I seemed to have a whole lot to blog about.

From the iftar sessions with the different people, to raya preparations and then to raya celebrations and to how im feeling ryte now. About my love life that is. The thing is, do i have one..? Aaaahhhh.

Million dollar question. *sigh*

Anyways, i just realised that i have like about 3 more weeks till school holidays. Yayness. And minus the weekends and today, its only 14 more days of school and seeing those monsters! The best thing is ive only left with 2more portfolios out of 39 students, morning and afternoon. And PTC is coming up. Everything must be ready. All my hard work, and how much am i paid? Peanuts. And by the hour at that.
Would i be staying on next year? I doubt so. My future is still very hazy. I havent found a stable job yet. But im thinking of pursuing my studies. Counselling psychology. If i cant make it as a pre school teacher, im gonna try counselling. Wouldnt that be great? Besides, my peeps have been turning to me whenever they have problems and it would be a fantabulous idea to put my listening ear to great use.

What do you think?

Digressing.

I duno if its just me or m i just too paranoid. But i think, girls and paranoia cums hand in hand? Have you ever been in a situation where you are soo damn bladdy confused and all you think about is that particular person and wonder all the time whether they are lying to you and that whether they are feeling the same way.

ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH.

Everything is soo complicated. Ive been thinking about it too much that im going crazy.

Why HIM? Why must my heart be with HIM?

I could almost hear (oh wait, i AM listening to Hady singing this song now) Hady singing Desperado to me. Literally.

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? You been out ridin' fences for so long now. Oh, you're a hard one. I know that you got your reasons. These things that are pleasin' you can hurt you somehow.
Don' you draw the queen of diamonds, boy. She'll beat you if she's able. You know the queen of heats is always your best bet. Now it seems to me, some fine things have been laid upon your table but you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no youger. Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'. Your prison is walking through this world all alone.
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time? The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine. It's hard to tell the night time from the day. You're loosin' all your highs and lows. Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? Come down from your fences, open the gate. It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you. You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

The song above soo dedicated to me.

Will blog again soon. Promise.


@ 10:28 AM