Monday, July 09, 2007

Love Letter



Dear You,

4 years have passed as my life has changed. I can't see tomorrow knowing that today, it's all gone. I had it all with you, the friendship, the love and now it's all memory with nothing ahead. My life has fallen; I only have faith in God to do his magic. I look forward to the end of my pain and yet I've felt the deepest pain a girl can ever feel in her heart. A cut so deep that medicine can't ever heal, but the pain of being alone is there.

Tears are the memory we have of each other and yet I lose them every time I cry thinking of you. They say time heals broken hearts but what do they know? They're not in my shoes. We take life for granted and never think of tomorrow, just enjoying today. Life is too short to be alone. All I can say is that I have faith in God ... that he will let me see tomorrow. I've written this with tears and blood that drips from my heart. I know there will be a tomorrow as long as I have you today.

It has been such a long time since we became friends. We have shared many good things together. I laughed and cried with you, shared some sparkling moments with you. But, there is something that you haven't known... I love you.
Not as a friend but as someone who would share a lifetime with you. I always ask myself why I love you... still, I cannot find an answer for it.

Every morning I wake up and there is a pain that shoots through my heart. The thought that I have to spend another day without you rips my soul apart. It pains me to know that the love I have for you burns within and fueled by undying passion. It pains me to know that I could have let the best that ever happen to me leave without a fight, and you know what hurts the most is the thought that you might not feel the same. The hardest part is not falling in love, but allowing yourself to fall out. I can't see my future any other way, but with you in it. It scares me to think that you can envision yours without me. It pains me to know that all good things have to come to an end.

I wish you would tell me to let go of you. I guess since you won't tell me to go, I'll continue on with the pain of not ever having you. Just tell me what you feel - that is all I need. I just need closure so I can sleep at night. If you miss me, find the brightest star I'll do the same for you.
I don't think you need a person like me in your life right now, you really need to worry about your future and it doesnt look like i'll be a part of it, and i just bring you down.
Waiting for you to make up your mind is a surefire for frustration.
I stand firm to my decision. Im leaving with a hole in my heart but maybe now, i can move on.


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Love always,Diyana.


@ 5:58 AM