Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Today is Wednesday



Yes its Wednesday! Finally midweek.

Time passes super duper slow this week. Maybe coz ders soo many things to do and that im soo stressed out with portfolio, audit, tutoring and such.



I dont quite have the time to blog about anything.



Maybe i do but then again, pictures are not in and that when i finally received the pictures, that entry will seem like so yesterday.



U get my dilemma?



And blogging about what i did during the week or the day is so not me.



So im gona give that a pass.



Im currently lying on my bed with the lappie on my lap.



Just reached home from supper at Azeera with the McQueens. N before that was at my usual every Wednesday tuition regime.



And fyi, im soo busy these few days.



Like ive said earlier, portfolios and audit aside, im like teaching tuition 4 days a week, back to back for that! Mon til Thurs.



My weekdays is pretty much burnt therefore i only get to relax on Fri, Sat & Sun.

But it doesnt seem to matter to me coz i feel like i have no life besides my family & friends.
And i dont have bf commitments therefore i can work and work.

Why do i work so hard anyways?

Reason no 1 - my pay is pathetic and i need the extra income.

Reason no 2 - i dont have bf commitments.

Reason no 3 - since i dont have a bf, n the fact that i dont date anymore, i need to kill time.

Which comes to the topic of why dont date.

Granted, i do have people asking me out BUT i just dont feel like going out with them. I guess im not ready to date.

Heck, ders even this guy who has been calling me and msging me everyday! Wanting to talk to me at night and such.

And me being me will not answer his calls or reply his msgs.

Why?

Coz my normal routine is to sleep around 11 plus.

I dont like late nite calls anymore coz its gonna affect my work the day after.
And the fact that i just dont like hogging the phone anymore.

How do i tell someone that im emotionally attached to someone though im single?

Yes, this feelings is STILL and always be for him.

Yes, he does not even know and im waiting for the right time and opportunity.

Yes that a gamble that i have to take.

I dont wanna let anyone down. I dont wanna lead anyone down. I dont wana hold anyone back from where they might belong.

Thats why i reacted this way.

Im very much numb with the whole situation.

Love situation.

I think i could get used to guys breaking my heart over and over again.

But then again, after my first love tore my heart into two, there's no mend.




Im gonna do my portfolios again now.

Toodles.

p/s - Audit's tomorrow. Wish me luck!

p/p/s - My appointment in SGH is on the 29th of May.
Wat the........!!!!!!!!


@ 10:12 PM