Saturday, December 31, 2005

2006



In just a days time, it will be 2006. Time flies pretty fast dis yr. It just seems like yesterday when i started studying yet again. 2005 has its ups and down. But to be honest, this is a very bad year for me. The one thing that i was really affected from and still reeling from is when the one i loved most left me. Yup. That sheer heartbreak that i felt 11 months ago is still felt. Pathetic aint it? Yah, i noe. *rolls my eyes*
Now i noe how LOVE can really breaks ur heart. Not only that, u would feel like ur heart is ripped into two. *sigh* Its so hard for me to open up my heart ryte now. Ive been on a few dates here and der but i just dun feel too connected to dem. U noe wat i mean? Enuf bout the matters of da heart.
This year, i started my diploma class. And now, since its the end of the year, i only have few months to go. Afterwhich, i have to go job hunting. Wow. Im going back to working life. I cant wait to start working and earn my own keeps.

Family affairs was also a big issue that i cannot seem to handle. This is one of the most worst case scenario of my 20 years of my life. Sumtimes, i just wish that my family wasnt this dysfunctional. Hari Raya dis year was way different from previous years. It saddens me that things turned out this way. But alhamdullilah, things are perking up.

2005 marks the 2nd year i noe my bestie. And i got to noe her more and more as days goes by. Her family has been very caring towards me. And im welcomed wif open arms by them. Thanks to bestie. Im sure people will be like, 'u only know her for 2 years, how cum she's ur best fren?' Mind u, despite the age difference, we haf a lot in common. We understand each other a lot. And the friendship cum sisterly love we share is mutual.

Ive grown very close to my friends. My pri sch gfs. There have been disagreement and disappointments but we always managed to work things out. Take just now for example. The girls got together for dinner. We catched up a lot on stuffs that we have been missing out. To be able to meet up is very difficult for some of us considering that half of us have already started working life. Working in shifts at dat. So it makes it difficult for us to get together on just a specific date and time itself. But, we'll try to make things work ryte girls?

2005 is also the year HPC is born. HIROK PIKOK CLAN. HPC is originated from the outstanding Wicked turned to HPC. All started from our dear efny who started the hirok pikok thingy. And that got feloz infected. He kept saying hirok pikok. And finally HPC was born. Our get together is always a blast. Like duh. We even have our very own website. .:.HPC webbie.:. Who would have thought virtual friends can come very close and den the crowd got more and more when 1st degree friends joined and now, all are chummy wif one another. Isnt that great? Im definitely looking forward to outings in the cuming years.

Of course when new year comes around, there will always be new year resolutions. I have a couple of resolutions. Well, its more than a couple la actually. The first is to lose weight. Not only that, i also want a healthy body. Past week i went to da gym. And i love it. So, my new year resolution is to have a betta bod than wat i have. *winks* Im feeling real enthusiastic about it. My only prob is that i need to find a personal trainer and companion to go gym. Any volunteers?
Im gonna be 21 next year. Its time to find a proper bf and settle down. Not get married. But to commit myself fully to relationship. I noe ive said that its difficult for me to open my heart to anyone. So hopefully, next year, i'll find sumone who can open my heart and love me wholeheartedly. Insyallah.

Wow. Took me ages to reach the end of da entry. Im finally done wif it. Gona go wash up and gave a lil chat wif ma sis. Good nyte.


@ 2:50 PM