Wednesday, December 07, 2005

.life.



Life is a bed of roses. Do i believe in that statement? Hmmm, i duno. Life is never easy. It is full of obstacles, trials & tribulations. Life doesnt just mean waking up, got to work, eat, sleep and all. There's more to life. People around u make your life worthwhile. Especially the people that love you, care for you. To some, life can be fun. life can be 'suck-y', life can be unfair. These things are predestined from GOD to us to handle life as the way it should be. How we handle life is the most important thing. Believe in karma? Im a firm believer in one. What goes around comes around. That's why they say, u shouldnt do bad things to others as it may come back right at you. And on a positive side, if u do a good deed to others, u will get your reward, sooner or later. Karma is also part of life. Karma is coming back to sumone who used to be a part of me. That particular person did me wrong and now that person is undergoing retribution. People keep telling me, 'See, xxx got his/her retribution. You should be happy.'
But i don't feel happy. Sumhow, i sympathize with xxx. I duno y. But im just the type of person who people describe ar 'nice'. I don't like it if anything bad happens to the one i used to hold dearly in my heart. But, in another point of view, though xxx deserves what he/she is going through, it just doesnt seem right that things isnt going his/her way. Months ago, i used to say that i cant wait for 'it' to happen. But now, im having doubts. I don't want xxx to ge hurt. Whatever it is, that is xxx problem, not mine. But i'll always be here if xxx needs me. Though i doubt it. A lot. Why would xxx come to me when he/she got lotsa frens to tok to? Apparently, yest nite, xxx said i was 'nice'. The nicest person he/she ever known.
Maybe life made me this way. Life that is bitchy towards me the past months made me 'nice'. I should be able to handle it easily ryte now. I am so trying to find myself ryte. So i wont give up and i wont break down. I will be strong even if it all goes wrong coz i noe that someone is watching over me. Life for me is a heap of cow dung. But it will turn around one day. Im sure it will. All i have to do is follow my heart. Who knows, life would turn out to be a bed of roses afterall.

p/s- Happy birthday Mr Bachelor aka Azmi.
(Azmi is my past addiction bro. Treat him like my very own. Things have been solemn between us but now its back to normal. Glad we're still in contact. )


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