Friday, April 14, 2006

sad



Time start: 12.15pm.
Blog entry has to be put on hold since im talking to my aunt ryte this very moment. I have been staring at this empty screen from just now but have yet to type or vent out my frustrations. There is practically mixed emotions bundling up in me. I duno whether to cry or get mad. Unfortunately, rather than venting my frustrations i let the sad emotions overcome me. To that, i cried myself to sleep. It has been ages since i cried therefore, tears fell like water rushing out like an open dam. No. Scratch that. The tears will flow like how you turn on a tap. It flows whenever i think about the incident last night. Den why think about that incident?
How can i not think? This thing is between two of the most important people who has made a greatest impact of me. It hurts just to see it happens. And im always known as the girl who listens to the parents and all but i hate it when she says things like dat. I hate it! I get so frustrated that i cry. You could call it angry tears. But at the same time, my heart crumples just like a piece of paper. I never felt so vulnerable. Im an adult. Why must i be told on who to be friends with? That is too demanding. Am i still a kid in their eyes? Im nearly 21. An adult? how can they say that? Its too much. Gosh. Im still crying.
I have always believed in second chances. Its not too much to ask for isnt it. Besides, im just friends with him. We never said anything about getting together nor did he say dat he wanna propose or sumting like dat. How can she say dat?!
I need my marina promenade. Its been ages since ive been there. Now is the time to retreat.


KEITH URBAN
Tonight I Wanna Cry(Monty Powell / Keith Urban)
Alone in this house again tonightI got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds meI'll never get over you walkin' away
Chorus:I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Would it help if I turned a sad song on"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
This song suits me. Though im not drunk and i never had any bottle of wine. I just wanna cry.
Time end: 12.46pm


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