Thursday, April 06, 2006

sigh



Feeling abit restless after the long talk i had on the fon wif one of my aunt. N, a wuss, that i am, i cried. One of my aunt has breast cancer. The disease that many women feared. At one point, i felt that her voice like already getting softer, like she was stifling tears, i felt dread. I was never known to be very good at trying to compose someone. Let alone talking about breast cancer. She even asked me, "What should i do, Na?"
I dont even know how to answer that question. I braced myself and said, "Redha je la Cik. Its fate. Ni semua dugaan dari Allah."

My conversation wif that aunt of mine was very long. We talked from serious things, to family matters, relationships and finally to Ari Wibowo, before she started complaining that her breasts hurt and that she wanted to take a rest before going for her biopsy. The serious things were definitely about her undergoing his trial and tribulations from God Almighty. Me & that aunt of mine is similar in a way. We both like to keep in touch with the rest of the extended family. We felt that its silly to pull yourself away from the rest of the siblings. I mean, what are families for? Having to stay together, bonded as a family. Going for family gatherings, staying connected no matter the distance. Never break that bond. Never bitch or diss your own family. I mean, why ruin things right? Besides, at the end of the day, blood is thicker than water. I must admit, my family, (im talking abt family as in my aunts, my uncles, my cousins etc), dont really share the bond that we used to share ages ago. We are all so pre occupied with our own lives that we seem to be putting aside family gatherings and such. That is not good. I dont think some even know that one of my aunt has breast cancer. It shouldnt be this way. they are siblings after all.
I dont wanna go in depths in this. It might take forever and i probably have to write a book about it. But im praying that my aunt will be healthy after this obstacle.

He's getting married to an ustazah!
Wow. In greater shock. After digesting that thought, i finally concluded that its good that way. The thing is that both my aunt and mama was disappointed that the woman he is marrying is not me. Oh well, what can i say? Jodoh pertemuan di tangan tuhan. Besides, im not even 21 for goodness sake. Im still young.
I just hoped that he stop msging me. He keeps msging me everyday la ok. I didnt entertain him la but still... haiyo.

On a different matter altogether, im heading off to woodlands to meet my past addiction.
Haha.
Just kidding. That guy is in camp la ok. Im going over to my aunt's crib to do some software research. N i shld be getting ready. So till, then, toodles.


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