Tuesday, February 06, 2007




So i found out yesterday that he's already married.
My whole life is screwed.
I think im being melodramatic but here's my sob story.

He was the near to perfect guy to marry.
But he married someone else.

Why get married so soon?
why get married so young?
Whats the hurry?
why cant you wait for me?
Why are you so hasty in making a life changing decision?

No doubt that its my fault that i ignored you even though you loved me whole heartedly and that you needed me.
Its my fault that i didnt give you an answer.
And now you're married. You left me all alone.
I regret making you cry and left you picking someone else.
Let's not blame fate. I'm not for you.
Please forget me but most of all, please forgive me.

I was only 19 back then.
Im way too young to be committed.
Now, when im ready, you got urself a wife by your side.

I noe this is pointless.
I dun even wanna noe your reasons nor explanations.

I dun nid any.
Its over and done.

Just like the malay saying- The rice has turned to porridge.

The candle has blown out.
The flame has died.

Im now gonna swallow whatever pride and dignity (and love or whats left of it), i haf left in me and hopefully be able to move on.

For now, just let me cry.


@ 7:24 AM