Sunday, March 18, 2007




im feeling so much dread ryte now. very dreadful.

i cant even describe what im feeling now.. im so at loss. Im so loss for words.

Let me ask you all sumtin.

Have you ever felt like you're being thrown off at the end of the universe. Twice? well, i have. and i felt it twice. Twice. I would have been ok if it was just once. But NO. I felt it twice.

Im so down in the dumps ryte now.
The gloomy weather isnt helping either.
So many things are going through my mind.

Too much confusion. Too much turmoil.

I just wanna run away from all the troubles. I wanna erase the memories and start anew.

But how can i ever do that? How? How? How?

Being alone doesnt help. Self-reflection aint working either.
So what should i do? I feel like im in a foreign country and where im LOST.
The idea of being in a foreign country seems enlightening.
That way i can separate myself from all the troubles.

All the sorrows. All the sadness.
But will it help.? Its worth a try.

I guess to some, i mean all, my entry seems very peculiar, very weird, very intriguing.
Very² suspicious.

But i guess, to me, there are limits in blogging. I can blog.
Type out my daily events, my tots, my feelings. But there are times where i should just keep things to myself. Fear is one of the reason that im keeping things to myself. Besides you dun spill out ur secrets. I have secrets. Everybody have secrets. Im sure you have one too, ryte?

The wierd thing is that the tears just wont come out even when i already feel it. I guess, im stronger now. I hope.

Dear Allah, im sure this is a test to see how strong ur humble servant is. I accept the test but hopefully you'll lift it up so my life can go on..


@ 12:40 AM