Thursday, April 19, 2007

Super long entry..or not..?



Wokay.

It was an eventful day. Im practically referring to today, yesterday and the day before yesterday.

Remember how i blogged the other day about how april seems like a very hectic month.

Well, its still ongoing but a burden, no wait, a whole lot of burden has been taken off my shoulder.

Ive also got myself nearer to GOD and Alhamdullilah, things never looked rosier.

Im more calm and peaceful now.
I go with the flow.
I admit, it got nerve wrecking sumtimes but the whole thinking-of-god all the time made me feel at ease.

And it all started from the Friendster msg i received the day before yesterday and yes, i was stumped.

But i dun even wanna tok about it anymore.

My closest saw me cried, saw me wailed, saw me crying my hearts out.

They were shocked of coz.

Its been a while since i got my heart broken.
(and it seems to be happening every year!)

I aint proud of that and it can only mean one thing.

There's sumting wrong with me or the guy whom i tot was my prince charming is actually a TOAD.

So which is which?

So anyways back to my pathetic story, i tot id be able to take things in my stride. But i broke down. I broke down big time. Which the worst happened yesterday after i performed my Subuh prayers. As i lifted both my hands to seek forgiveness from God, tears flowed uncontrollably. It was madness!
I tried to stop after dat and continued getting ready for work but it just wouldnt stop!
Even when i left the house, reached the bus top, waited for the bus, sat in the bus, reached my stop, met eila, i was still crying.
N i didnt care how messy i was.

My makeup, my eyeliner, my mascara, my blusher was totally gone.

Eila can vouch to dat.

I had to compose myself from all the tersedu-sedan before reapplying my make up under the void deck and walked to work.

How pathetic!

But then, this morning, i woke up feeling better. Much better infact.

I was crying no more. I didnt think about it too much. I didnt think about it at all.

It's all predestined.

God has better things in store for me. But i aint rushing to get involved with anyone. They say, once bitten twice shy.

N god knows how many times ive got myself bitten.

Ok, no more love stories or now.

Just now, it was the 'audit' that my colleagues and i were both anticipating and dreading.
I swear there were mixed emotions.
My heart was beating like crazy since lunch time but ended when she left. Hah!

And what's the outcome..?

We got the orange-green or isit green-orange code?

What does that mean?

It means, its almost perfect!

Is that good or is that good? Lol.

I left work happy.

Reached home happy.
Now still am feeling happy. =)
Though am a bit tired.

Totally looking forward the weekend. Its jam packed with activities. Fri- is pay day. Just feel like letting loose. Saturday- no plans yet but i know i wanna njoy myself. Sunday? Wow. Its the engagement. Engagement of who?

My closest!

Name cannot be disclosed yet. But she's finally getting hitched. N im more of wedding planner ratha than bridesmaid. =p
But i am looking forward to the wedding. Gonna buy cloth at arab street to make a nice kebaya. Yayness to that.

Digressing.

Did you know that i actually wanna go hiatus. Really.
Since that incident, i just wanna be quiet for a while but then i changed my mind.
Fickle kan.

My apologies for the lack of pictures. Just no mood to edit the pictures to post them up. Hehe. So sorry.

I actually started this entry with dunno what to type but here i am blabbering away.

I guess i hafta stop now.

Till next time, toodles.

P/s- My precious sunshine is feeling under the weather. Get well soon love. TD loves you so so much! We'll play tolak-tolak the supermarket trolley soon k.
MUUUUUUUUAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKKSSSS.


@ 12:11 PM