Tuesday, June 19, 2007

.Sensitivity.



Are you sensitive?

I am. I think.

I just took a test to see if im sensitive. And guess what? I am.

And sensitivity is nothing to be proud of. Sensitivity is also nothing but a flaw.

-I seem to be aware of subtleties in my environment.

-Other people's moods affect me.

-I tend to be very sensitive to pain.

-I am deeply moved by the arts or music.

-My nervous system sometimes feels so frazzled that I just have to go off by myself.

-I am conscientious.

-I get rattled when I have a lot to do in a short amount of time.

-I am annoyed when people try to get me to do too many things at once.

-I try hard to avoid making mistakes or forgetting things.

-Changes in my life shake me up.

-I find it unpleasant to have a lot going on at once.

-When I must compete or be observed while performing a task, I become so nervous or shaky that I do much worse than I would otherwise.

-I find myself needing to withdraw during busy days,into bed or into a darkened room or any place where I can have some privacy and relief from stimulation.

And the latter is what happened at the family gathering at my aunts crib. Gosh. I was deeply hurt and affected by what was said to me.
By all means, i controlled my tears to stop it from flowing.
Bestie wasnt there for me yesterday so i was kinda jittery.
Thankfully, there was my other 2 'I's still here in sg.

Ija & Inda. Oh and also taib. Though he's not an 'i'.

They just told me to ignore. Infact everyone that knows whatever shit that im going through told me to ignore.

My aunt specially called me up this morning to ask of my well being. Though she doesnt know the full story and partly whatever that i told her is true la. I was moody. And i was having the pms. yada yada yada.

Which is true. Really true.

PMS sucks. You will have a billion emotions running in you.

Like, i was feeling good this morning but now, i just feel.. sad..? frustrated? agitated? lonely..?

Ugh.

Why do we have to go through pms?

Its like freaking irritating to handle these emotions all at once.

I cant handle it.

Ive always believed in this.

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But what if the people who matter are the ones who are trying to bring you down. And im saying blood ties. Not just frens-frens kind of thing. I mean, if frens were to say that, i can just drop them.

But what about ur family members?
What if they were the ones who says those remarks?
What do you do?

Are they just INSENSITIVE or am i just Sensitive?

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