Tuesday, July 08, 2008

random blabberings



First and foremost, let me just say tha this will be one of those norm random blabberings i have out of the blue.

Currently im blogging (duh), watching the video between jesse mccartney and perez hilton, laying down comfortably on my bed and trying to stop myself from puking.

Its been a week now and my appetite is still not back.

Today, when i reached home from tutoring, i forced myself to eat something as i did not, and i really did not eat anything at all since morning.

After the torture of forcing myself to gorge down the food, i now have the sudden urge to vomit everything out again.

But if i do that, then i'll be binging and when i binge it means that im sick. And not just sick physically.

This body of mine wasnt ready to adjust to the normal work routine as i woke up feeling cranky, moody and very much in a foul mood.
I didnt even wanna work!
I guess it must be the super long weekend i had.

Oh and for the record, i wasnt ignoring anyone or anything.

I was really sick for the past few days and i really didnt have the energy to talk. Or discuss or to sms. Call. And such.

ANd this, im proclaiming out of my goodwill and not coz someone asked me to.

I do believe and stand firm to that belief that I AM WHAT I AM.
YOUR APPROVAL ISNT NEEDED.

Therefore, i dont owe anyone any explanation and such.
Its really just up to me if i wanna voice it out.

No puns intended.

Heard the song on my blog?

Its Always by Bon Jovi.
A classic isnt it?

I am soo in love with this song.

Digressing for the i-duno-how-many-times.

I was out yesterday with HSCB when i saw a very familiar looking guy.
That guy turns out to be one of the guy i used to date.
DId you know that i was out with a guy who had a fiancee
Well guess what?

I swear i had no idea that he had a fiancee.

I didnt have any feelings for him whatsoever.
I just thought that he was really stable and all.

See, the thing about him is that, whenever he had problems with his fiancee, he will call me up. And will say he misses me and such. Typical, huh?

Well, it did boil down to the point where i had enough of his nonsense and told him to never ever contact me again.
Which, thankfully he did.

So, i told you that story because, me n the girls bumped into him yesterday at Marina.

And guess what?

He WASNT with his fancee.

Out dating with another girl huh?

Bad enough that another someone who recently broke off his engagement came back to me saying he misses me and all.

Like seriously, whats up with these guys?
Ive seriously had enough of being second best.

Am i just a spare tyre? A rebound?

Dont you think i deserve MORE THAN JUST THAT?

Thats probably the reason why im single, still.

I dont choose any Tom, Dick or Harry.

I wanna be with someone who loves me for me.
Someone who makes me happy.
Someone who is stable.
Someone who can take care of me. Not otherwise.
Someone who is smarter than me. In terms of work, life and religion wise.

One way or rather, ive been told that im very very choosy.

I dont care what you people out there think of me.

If i dont get what or who i want, i'd rather be single.

You need not worry about me.
Just leave me alone.
Besides,relationships scare me sometimes.

People around me are breaking up.
So why shouldnt be terrified?

Ok, tell me now, why am i rambling abt relationships

I love Perez Hilton gossip blog page.
Everyday without fail, i would go online to read the latest and juicest news about Hollywood.

Click Here
for the latest gossip news from Hollywood

and

Here
for the exclusive video chat between the gorgeous Jesse McCartney and Queen of media himself, Perez Hilton.

Speaking of gorgeous,

Photobucket

Isnt he a dreamer?

There's no wonder he appeared in my dreams the previous night.

Details SHALL NOT be revealed.

So, my gfs who know, please keep it to yourself.

(there wasnt any naughty scenes or anything like dat la just so you know. n dat you wont get any ideas ok)

It was dreamy and very light. Heck, even Mr A was in it.

I wished my alarm didnt go off.

Ok, enough ramblings, time for me to head to lala land.

Maybe, more of Lewis Hamilton perhaps?

Haha.

Gd nite!




@ 10:38 PM