Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Love.. The reality



So i spent two days at home recovering from the throat infection. Its better now, if you must ask.

Now, what did i do at home?

I spent the day bumming around the house with the lappie on watching The Bachelor.

Have you seen it before?

When i was younger (I turn a quarter century old this year thus im old ok), i love watching this reality television series and always wanted to be part of this particular show. That was then.

Watching this show now, made me realise how much degrading it is for those 25 women vying for that guy's attention.

Meet Jake.

A 32 year old pilot looking for a wife.
HOT isnt he?
Now, i am so surprised right now. A dashing looking guy like, with those looks, the body, the career, why go on a reality tv series just to go look for a wife?

And dont get me started on the 25 women.
Desperate much are they?

Oh well, to each his own i guess.

I wouldnt be crazy enough to join and participate in The Bachelor but this show has caught my attention.
In this show, i see hearts breaking, falling in love, the drama, the scandalous affair of Rozalyn, one of the ladies who had a sexual affair with one of the producers of the show. Too much hype going on.

But it still got me at the edge of my seat.

I watched the whole season on youtube just to see which 'lucky' girl Jake would choose.

The sweet one or the bold one.

He chose Vienna.


The bold one. The one that everybody hates on the show.

A fairy tale ending for them both?

I dont know. Only time will tell.

Back to the topic on why i would wanna join The Bachelor years ago.

Ok, here's the scoop.

I am a NOBODY back then.

Im an introvert. I dont talk much around people i dont know. Im not that smart but i did get my diploma. I dont have the looks. I mean seriously.

There was a couple of incidents where no one would even look at me. Its like the eyes just glided past me. And it did not help that sometimes family members and friends would always say to my twin that she is the pretty one and such.

I GET THAT ALL THE TIME.

I even had ex boyfriends telling me that my twin is prettier than me.

How do you think that made me feel?

My confidence level has gone way down and i thought no one would actually love me for me.

Its hard having a twin who is prettier than u, more approachable and more fun than you are.

My confidence level was way low.

I wished i was pretty. I wished i had a sense of style. I wished i was outspoken.

I dont even know when this entry is gonna end because im pretty much typing what is at the top of my head.

Suddenly i felt that this entry has no motive.

So, i had my fair share of heartbreaks throughout my 25 years of life.

If, i did not meet my schoolmate years later, i have a very strong feeling that i'd probably still be single.

This schoolmate of mine has accepted me, my flaws and has seen the imperfection in me to make me his wife, with god's willing, in june.

So to girls out there who felt unpretty, dont fret. You will never be alone. There is someone out there for you.

You need not need to go on reality television just to find love.

Love will definitely come to you.


@ 1:43 PM