Thursday, February 16, 2006

aftermath.



Ladies and gentlemen, after the sentosa outing with HPC, i found myself getting darker, sunburnt, aching hands and face and nose and most importantly, i getting more and more attached to these lovely peeps.

Awwww.. So sweet.

These boisterous bunch of peeps are the people that i meet from the Net. Yes,the friendship that we have established grows stronger especially after every outing! Seriously people, who would have thought friendships from the Net could be this fun and everlasting. Hopefully, everlasting ah.
But it wasnt actually a bed of roses. We have already eliminated those backstabbing people who make our lives nytemare. Now, we are ever so contented wif the current members of HPC. I heard that there will be new recruits or some sort. Is it true, efny?

I digress.

Did you know that i like to observe people. Be it, family, relatives, friends enemies, etc.

I just found out sumting about my aunts. And now i realise how my sisters got our behavior. It is bladdy similar to my aunts behavior. Very odd. But then again, blood is thicker than water. So now, i noe y me & my sisters behave the way we do. *sigh*

So yesterday was V day. The day of love. ya da ya da ya da.
I found myself cuddling infront of the telly watching LOVE ACTUALLY on cable with my bolster and frozen yoghurt. I love that show. I remember watching it few years back with my ex bf and still my current friend, Yusof. Yes, my dear dear Yusof. We go a long way back actually. I could kicked myself for breaking up with him. But its in the past, so lets not rake it up, yea. When i watched dat show, i started feeling sorry for myself for the lack of love and attention im getting.
*double the sigh*

Dearest bestie told me to trust her and that love will come knocking on my door very soon. Well, hopefully.

Have any of you felt that you made a wrong choice and regret your decision now? Well, i do. I made a hell lot of wrong decisions in nearly 21 years of my life. The best part is, i kept choosing the wrong guy. And i only have myself to blame. I was browsing thru my old diary. 2 years ago, i let an 'angel' slip out off my hands and now he belongs to another. And, for god sake dee, i let another one slip just a year ago. So, one plus one = 2.

I let go of 2 guys who really wanna be with me for this guy who in the ends dumped me. Stoopid ryte. Very stoopid. But i always believe that everything happens for a reason. All this wrong guys will lead me to my future bf who is nuthing but perfect. Im so delusional. There is no such thing as perfect in the world. Ok, let me rephrase my sentence.

.......lead me to my future bf who is nuthing but perfect in my eyes.

Yup,perfect in my eyes. Not in ur eyes. But in mine.

I suddenly feel like im crapping. M i crapping?

No need to answer. I answer myself.

Yes, definitely dee. Ure definitely crapping. Considering that u answer ur own questions. *ahaks*

Seriously, now, i want to take one step at a time. As much as i crave and long for LOVE, im skeptic in putting myself in a relationship. Scared ah. You know what they say, once burnt, twice shy.

And now, my mind is blank. I duno wat else to type. So i think, im gona stop now and take a bathe. *blueek*
Its 1.30 pm btw.


@ 5:35 AM