Friday, February 17, 2006
.natural.
Gosh, the sun burns on the skin is so getting to me. Not only do i get any darker den my usual self, my skin is peeling like a snake. Dearest rustiboi was an angel. Never failing to make me feel better. *smiles*
Lets not side track. For the first time in how many years, i went to school without make-up. Yes, me without make-up. Can u imagine dat? Gosh. I looked so fugly. And i said fugly coz i look terrible.
F#@king ugly.
I really felt as if sumting was wrong wif me. Everything looks so wrong. I even felt naked w/o make up. I duno whether its just me but i keep getting stares on my way to school yesterday. The paranoia is settling in.
Screw dos guys who says dat they like girls w/o make-up. They say its natural beauty. That thought disgusts me. I would like to declare that i DO NOT HAVE NATURAL BEAUTY. I am not one of those girls who are blessed with natural beauty. Who goes out w/o make up on. That is so not me. I admit, i look much and i mean much much better with make -up. And yesterday was horrible. Going to school w/o make up was downright terrible. For me dat is.
Take a look below of a with and w/o make up shot.
Of course the one of the left is without make up and the one on your right is with make up. So which is better? I seriously think i look better with make up. Though it doesnt look dat bad w/o. But still, im getting darker now so it was like a living nightmare for yesterday. And wearing white didnt help. Stoopid me! My dark face will definitely stands out. But i didnt think of that, did i?
Apparently not. I still went to school wearing white. Goodness gracious!
Suddenly it occur to me that ranting wont make the anger fade away. I just have to be patient. My skin will peel of to be much softer and lighter. *winks to rustiboi*
So patience does it, i hope. And i am known for being patient so y cant i be patient now? Sheesh. Ok, patience dee. Patience.
I juz realise that there is 5, no make it 6 patience in one para. Hehe
Back to more serious topic.
I just hate it how guys could just behave the way they do. Just because they are the GUY the can do whatever they want.
Bull shit.
Ive had it with men and their ego. They keep saying that they are always right though its so damn bladdy clear that they are in the wrong. Men sumhow dont think of how their gfs would feel if they did something wrong. They dont think. They just dont. Goodness, GOD gave u guys brain to think ok. God. It irks me so much to know that such men existed. Then again, i dont think nice men existed. *frowns*
Pretty sure that para would coz a bit of a row btwn sex-es. But what the heck, im typing this one out based on what i see around in couples. Couples that are my friends. That i dont except the guy to behave that bladdy way. I swear if he did that kind of thing one more time, im gona ask her to break up wif him ryte der and den!
Ok, here's a scenario.
Girl and Boy get together. Girl and Boy loves each other. Girl befriended Boy's friend, Y. Boy didnt like it. But Girl says, "What, we're just friends wat." Which is true la. Boy stir up trouble by contacting otha girls. Boy wasnt happy that Girl is still befriending Y. But Girl regarded Y as her confidante cum counsellor. Girl initially wanted to introduce Y to her fren X. But it was more of saying rather then doing. X didnt mind actually. X observed sumting lately. X feels that Girl and Y could be in love with one another and that Girl should leave Boy for Y.
Can Girl leave Boy for Y?
Stay tuned.