Friday, March 03, 2006
.work.
It's been too long hasn't it. I think so. It seems forever since i last touched the computer. Oh, wait a minute, it was 2 days ago, then why on earth do i feel that it was so freaking long?!
Work is hectic. It is taking a toll on me especially on monday, wednesday and friday. Why? Because those days are the days where i have my night classes. Now, i so totally understand how my other classmates feel. From getting up early and your day only ends way at night. Gosh. It was so bad. My sleep was deprived. I had a lot of getting used to . Like trying my very best to sleep early so that i could get my butt out of bed early just to go to work. Which was so freaking difficult cause i was so not used to it and i usually get the jitters when i have to go to work, you know, like, you can't expect what is going to happen in class. And that makes it even harder!
The environment at work was hideous. Real hideous. Not only was i lost on my first day of my relief teaching, i was just agog with the way lessons were run, the way those kids had their snack. And to my absolute horror, i was so surprised to be told that i am taking nursery class for the afternoon session. Something that i wasnt told. It's a good thing actually coz nursery class ends at 3.45 pm. An hour earlier than the kindergarteners. But im complaining because i have no where to go after class on monday, wednesday and friday before going to my night class. I so cannot stand staying longer at the classroom so that i had to rule out. Hanging out alone at malls seems pathetic and not only that its going to make me even more tired if i walked around. Fortunately, i have two more days of teaching and i can go back to waking up late, chatting with bestie and efni at the msn.
But then again, i hoped i get a job pretty soon.
Btw, wanna know what happened to me at work just now?
Well, i got pretty mad with the nursery class for not listening to me that i scolded everyone! All were stunned when i scolded them coz 90% of the time, i was super nice to them. I threatened not to let them play and all started behaving. What was worst was that, one student stepped on my slipper when i was walking away and the straps tore! I was freaking out. Like how the hell am i supposed to go home. I was definitely pissed with those kids and they making so much now made my blood boils. So, i had my straps taped with masking tape. Pathetic, but what choice do i have. Thankfully i was wearing skirt so it didnt reveal much .
Now, one cold hard stare from me will make those nursery kids behave. But then again, they are just super adorable. And with a teacher like me, how adorable can everything gets. Right. Go puke.
I am considering of not marrying and fall in love. But i want babies. So perhaps, i'll adopt. Why, you ask?
Well, i had this conversation with my classmates before class stareted the other day, and with all the experience that they said, i came to a conclusion where guys are hopeless. And like i said before, there are probably good guys around but they are probably taken or worst, DEAD. Oh well.
Salinah asked me and ija this question a week ago.
"Is it better to be single or attached?"
Ija beat me to answering.
She said, "When ure single, u wished u were attached but when u're attached u wished you were single."
I put a lot of thought in her words and i realised, hey, that's so true.
But just today, i wouldnt want to have any relationship with anyone at all. I just cant.
I have a long day tomorow and im still figuring where i will go after work before class.
Any ideas anyone?